daniel veda

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I'm back I feel as if the vacation went by too fast. i missed my bed. I know I was only gone for a few days but bro my beds the comfiest I swear. i think Daniels's actually trying to be something for real now. I'd love to just believe him and giving myself to him would be so easy. As soon as I hopped on my bed, Daniel decided to FaceTime me.
I accepted. "Hallow"
"Heyyy cutie, what're you up to?"
"I literally just got in bed and you ruined my peace, how bout you"
"I just thought of you, so I decided to call you." "aww baby you think of me." " yeah I'm with the fam right now and thought of my wifey ya know." he said with a smirk.

we talked for a couple minutes, he realized I was tired and let me sleep.

when I got up I went to play with my baby Jacob because I missed him. i had no plans for the day. i decided to vlog a day in my life. so I did a whole morning and skincare routine. my routine has mainly been the ordinary brand. its all minimalist and non- expensive. went downstairs and made some breakfast for myself and some food for Jacob. my mom was at work. i got a text from the boys saying they were outside. I vlogged myself walking to the door, and seen them with a pitbull. hell no. I opened the door.
"y'all are playing with me right?" I screamed.
"its mine, hahaha" Kevin says happily.
"you little shit I can't believe this, hi lil sexy. I already love you" it was love at first sight for sure.
"what're you naming him?" kev asked me.
"rambo, benzo fuck i don't got a clue. comment down below" i smile into the camera.
"let's go take him to the store and get him toys" Daniel says grabbing Jacob from the kitchen.
"Jacob look, he's a nice doggie" Devin shows him.
"let me just grab a few things, the car seats in my garage, strap Jacob in" I grab my camera. "Since ima mommy ima have to grab a bigger bag to fit some diapers, wipes, milk, water, shoes, socks, vegetables and some chips for my 4 sons" I was talking to the camera and I running around for 3 mins trying to gather everything then sit in the backseat of Kevin's car.

"Jacob what song you want?" Kev asks
"X" Jacob yells referring to XXXTENTACION's song I don't even speak Spanish lol. Daniel introduced him to the song and all he knows is it turns everyone up. We all laugh at his reply but lil baby gets what he wants.

I get a message from Selena I hadn't talked to her in a couple days. It's rude to say but I almost forgot about her. I open the iMessage chat to see a video.  I put my Earbuds on and make sure it's not in Jacobs view to see. It was a party, and Daniel was seeing going into a closet with a girl I couldn't recognize. I was aware of this night, Devin was bragging about the 7 minutes shit, they were playing at the party. I didn't care to ask Daniel. Its none of my business. We are meant to be friends. Anyways I'm starting a new school year as a junior. I can't let this get to me. I need to stop depending on him and I can't expect him to be loyal to me. We are both confused. I just need to tell him to stop flirting with me. I need to stop flirting back with him. it's leading him and everyone around us on.
I have so many opportunities in my life that people wish they had. I'm not going to let my only option be Daniel. I'm going on focus on myself until I am ready or find the one. This summer without having me around me everyday, it was a learning experience. it sucks when they leave but at the same time it was good for me to be around new people, to be independent. All that time alone taught me there are more important things then boys. I know Daniels special and what we have is rare. It hasn't went anywhere and if it's meant to be it will be later...i guess. im simply going to try to enjoy my time with my friends. that's all.
I look over as Daniel as he's playing with Jacob at the dog food aisle. Devin and Kevin are looking at cats.
"Daniel" I look into Daniels eyes
"Victoria" he notices the look
of concern in my eyes.
"I will always have love for you. you understand that and i love us how we are. I don't wanna do the flirting with each other bullshit. If it's meant to be it'll be. It'll work itself out" I said, kissing his cheek.
"Thank God. I've been so scared to hurt you. If it's meant to be it'll be. C'mon Jacob let's play with kitties"

I slowly started pushing Daniel away...

Okay so I just wrote stories about my real love life and shit. I think it's pretty interesting. you should definitely check it out. My life's been starting to sound like the books. i call my life 'can't keep up'. what're you guys even interested in? i gotta macbook now which will motive me to write cause I love it.