The Unforgettable Crush

Feelings

It has been about a month and a half since I first saw the senior at the meeting. I always see him throughout the halls and he would always get a lunch during my lunch. Swim practice starts today after school. I'm really excited. Whenever school does end, everyone on the swim team meets in the weight room. He walks into the weight room and I about nearly die. Anyways we all do stuff in the weight room for about an hour and then go down to the pool. I get into the same lane as him. I was hoping maybe we'd have a lane to ourselves so maybe we could just talk, but unfortunately someone else came in the lane. I would've still talked to him but I didn't want the other person to know. I sigh to myself and just spend the rest practice with my feelings bottling up in my head. The rest of the week were exactly the same. By the end of the week I became really depressed because I was never able to tell him. So whenever we did have swim practice I never strived to tell him. I decided since I wouldn't be able to in front of someone else, I decided I just wouldn't tell him at all. I kept my feelings to myself and crushed on him in silence. I would secretly take pictures of him and at least I had those to tide myself over. A freshman with a crush on a senior. I realized that telling him probably would be really stupid. What's wrong with me?