HERE I AM

Questions floating in my mind

As I reached the seminar center, I was happy to see that there were other people too who are attending the "speak beyond words" seminar. Last night I imagined myself sitting with other 5 people in the seminar center and trying not to sleep., but here there were youth as well as people in their mid 20's. I scanned the hal to find a nice place to sit. I spotted a red head who had a notebook and three different pens out already, she seemed quite interested in the seminar. I guess I found my seminar hall neighbor.

"Hey, is there any one sitting here" I asked pointing at the seat beside her. She seemed hesitant at first but later moved her head acknowledging that it was OK to sit beside her. She did not say anything so I felt as if I overstepped in her personal space. I let that feeling slide by, and took out my notebook and a pen as well. She looked towards me and with a half smile stretched her hand forward "I am Jennifer, you can call me Jenny, since Jennifer is a big name to address so..." I was shocked as she just kept spilling words, maybe she was nervous to talk to a stranger. I introduced myself as well. She seemed like a very nice person.

"So what makes you attend this seminar" Jenny asked.

"I had nothing better to do, so decided to attend this, plus this seminar was introduced to us in college, so hoping it adds to some credit points"

"Oh.. I came to know about this seminar through the librarian, I always go to this public library, just a beautiful place, ad minimal human contact, she kinda treats me like a daughter now and she kinda requested me to come here and talk to people, she even wants me to register for this Pen-pal program, but I somehow convinced her that I don't want to do it"

'Pen-pal program' I haven't heard about it before, I wanted to know about it, but would she know about it since she seemed very uninterested in it.

"Do you know anything about the pen-pal program, like what's it all about, seems new and foreign" I asked as she was drawing something in her book.

She looked up and starred at me as if I was a foreign person here, "you don't know about this program, you seem even more detached with humans than I am" she said it as a joke to which I didn't react to. Cause hey I don't want to know that I am boring from others, I know that already. As she finished giggling on her own joke she continued "Its an online crap, where you have to register, make a new email id with their domain name and they will ask you few set of question, based on those answers they will send you an email id of another person. You can email and talk to this person, you can call it a virtual diary which even responds back. It for people like me who don't speak out so often, and don't really like to talk and be judged by people they love"

As I was about to ask more about it but then the speaker of the seminar adjusted the mike and introduced himself and began with the seminar.

The speaker seemed like a wonderful person, he spoke with so much confidence , which would surely impact the lives of each one of us, that is if we were even listening. I guess except me all were extremely keen about it.

My mind kept racing towards the pen-program and how it seemed like something I should do.

I would have to be very secretive as to not let Sam find out about it as well towards my pen-pal buddy to some extent.

I had so many questions floating in my mind which kept me from listening to Dr.Borg the speaker. 

What if he/she wants to meet me ?

 What if I am not interesting enough to text ? 

What if I wish to meet the person ?

 What if the person I am talking to ends up being someone I know ? 

what if.......... ? 

(A/N)

So a new chapter.

I couldn't stop myself from posting a new chapter. Cause I really want to help Hannah, everyone deserves to live a happy life and not a robotic one.

I use a lot of slang while writing butIi will surely edit it ones I get time. I am in college and slightly busy with a project work.

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