real for real and we'll be healed..

let it go

Shut out to motivational speaker.. go follow him on Instagram guys, the photo above is one his many quotes..

Today I learnt that most of the things that we pray the most for or cry the most over are things not meant to be..

I'm Brandy a 18 year old Christian who has been saved for almost 4 years, when I got saved I attended an event at our Church's headquarters and saw someone that made me feel like I've never felt before, crushes come all the time but it normally fades after a while but what I felt grew continuously​ for this individual even though he was too full of himself and locked in I didn't care I thought maybe he had been through enough which is why he built these walls...

I prayed for him more than I prayed for myself (literally)
Did random checkups but as a church sister but there was never any progress and one night I was at convention and he was there, I was so distracted by him that I started crying and asking God please to not let me put anything above him and I heard the Lord said to me, "don't allow what you feel to drown you, come clean so you'll be able to know where you stand". I came home that night and I sent a message to him on Facebook telling him how I felt..
(Summary of message)

I've liked you for a while now and I thought I would have faded but it didn't and I needed to let you know..
I prayed he wouldn't reply but he did not long after and as I read tears pricked my eyes and at the end I just broke down..

(Summary of his message)
Lol really? Well I am likable lol God bless you.

I'm sharing because I know I'm not the only one who have held on to things that weren't meant to be, but the minute I decided to brave up and speak up I found out what a jerk I've been holding on to, I still do like him now but he's not worth my tears and it's time you know that your worth more than hurt and rejection... Your a rare gem, your what someone is praying for..

Don't hold on to hurt anymore, let it go lovelies..

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