That night while i was in my room. I thought about my death and it finally really sunk in I'm dying. I don't get to get married. I don't get to have kids. Meet the love of my life. It is so scary knowing that next year on this day i may not be alive. I thought about Alex finally stopping his playboy ways the one girl he is going to be with in the future. I think I'm don't get to be that girl like i have been wishing for years t be that girl. But no it look like the universe has other plans for me. Officially my life sucks ass.Now I'm tired so goodnight world hope i wake up in the morning.
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The next morning when i wake up i can tell I'm already getting worse. I run to the bathroom and throw up. I know its gross but i look down and see blood in my vomit. I yell for my mom and she comes running in to the bathroom. All i see on her face is pure sadness. She goes downstairs to call the school that I'm not going in and i hear her call the doctor for an appointment. See the doctor i have is only for stomach cancer, which i have and it sucks. Especially when i get random stomach pain in my stomach. Which yes the fucking hurt.
My mom comes at stairs looks at me and say "gt read we have to get you to the doctors." Her face just looks down like she hates the world. If your wondering where my brother is he's at school he takes the bus. After I'm done getting ready i go down the stairs to see my mom with her head in her hands crying.
"Mom are you OK?"
"Do i look OK? I'm losing my daughter and it sucks. I don't want to lose you."
"Mom like i told you yesterday I'm still here enjoy the time we have left."
After that we got in the car and i was starving. Realized haven't ate since yesterday at lunch." But then again I'm not aloud to eat tell after my appointment so it fine.
When we got to the doctors. My doctor Mr.Thomas looked at me and said "I thought we had more time before i had to give you these pills." He looked sad because he new my dd before he died. I don't like thinking about that but i know that i got cancer because of my dad .My dad died of the cancer i have.
The doctors talks to my mom and go and get my pills. When i get in the pharmacy i go into the line and wait for my name. And of course with my bad luck when they call my name to get my pills and i go up and get them and turn around Alex walks in. He see's the pills and i run before he can say anything. With a little luck on y side moms in the car and we drove off i saw Alex in the back round if us driving away with a face of pure sadness like his heart just broke. When i ran i thought i saw love in his eyes but then i ran away of course. Tomorrow is going to suck ass. But i don't have to worry tell tomorrow.
When we get home charlie is sitting on the couch crying.i walk up to him and say "what is the matter buddy." He looks at me and pulls up his pant leg and he's got a little cut. I pick him up which is kinda hard do to the fact that I'm getting weaker. Mom see's and say's "put him down you aren't Strong enough." I just roll my eyes take him to the bathroom and clean up his cut. When I'm done i put a band aide on and kiss it.I look up ad say "all better?" He nodes his head a hugs me and say's "I love you Danny." I say "I love you to charlie. tell mom I'm gong upstairs to bed." he nodes his head and i hear him tell mom. When i get to my room i realize I'm not hungry anymore to much stress i get a Glass of water from my bathroom open my pills and take them. Then i lay down and it feels like 5 seconds later I'm out.
