It's a secret

1.

Senior year just ended yesterday. I woke up at my best friend Sophie's house. I reach under the pillow that I am laying on top of and find my phone. I always place my phone under my pillow before bed. I click the home button and look at the time. '9:47 AM' Wow, that time is pretty early, for me anyway. I lay on her bed and think about the party that happened last night.

We had over a few friends and went down to the lake for late-night skinny dipping. For one last hurrah. It was actually a ton of fun. More people came and someone brought alcohol. I, of course, was not informed of that beforehand. But I gave it and had a couple shots then smoked a couple bowls. A lot of the people were skinny-dipping. I decided against it and wore my bikini. I'm not a baby, I just don't like to show my body in that way. I still consider myself exclusively fun... Exclusively fun? cool people do not say that. I'm so uncool. which is why I am planning on being wild and let loose when I go to college in California. I worked so hard to get into this UCLA (University of California, Los Angeles) and I even helped Sophie with her studies so she could get in too. I need my best friend. It was worth it, Sophie and I both got into the same college and will be moving in with my older brother Michael who conveniently lives and works in California. We just have to make a small drive to get to UCLA. I have already talked to my brother and he is kindly letting us stay there until we both can get enough money saved up. God knows how expensive dorms are.

I can't wait any longer. So many things to look forward to. There's beaches, hot boys, palm trees, sand.. California food. I don't know. I just can't believe I'm moving there in 2 weeks. Goodbye Colorado, hello California.

I smile at the multiple thoughts going on in my head and sit up from the bed. I find my way to her mirror and wipe underneath my eyes. I hear movement from the bed and peek over to see Sophie flipping on her other side. I quietly walk back to the mirror, then pull my caramel brunette hair into my hands and tie my hair up in a ponytail.

When I walk into the living room I see Chris on his stomach, playing on his phone. Chris has been a friend of me and Sophs for about 2 years. He turns around and his black hair is in a mess. Tyler and Issac are sleeping on the couches. And I think the person sleeping on the carpeted floor is Derek.

"Oh hey, Anna." Chris says in a low voice when he sees me.

"Hi, Chris." I walk into the kitchen and look for some breakfast. "Why are you up so early?" I asked him, trying not to be loud. I certainly don't want anyone else in the room waking up, especially Tyler.

Tyler is my ex-boyfriend. Things left on a pretty bad note, but it was a long time ago. It's still extremely awkward, considering he was my first boyfriend and you never really completely loose feelings for them.

"I'm blaming beer.. I don't even know why I'm up." I snap out of strolling down memory lane and laugh with Chris.

"Me too." Chris lays back down. I have been searching for pancakes, cereal, something. I open a cabinet and it accidentally slips from my hand and slams shut. I curse under my breath, then hear a blanket moving.

"Sorry Chris." I pull out the bowl and set it gently on the counter.

"Hi," I turn next to me and see a sluggish Tyler standing at the other side of the kitchen. My heart is beating so fast, I thought he was sleeping.

"Oh.. Sorry if I woke you." I get nervous very easily. it's a curse.

"You did." His voice is so deep and scratchy. It's pretty sexy. I need to ignore it though, for my own good. "But it's cool. What're you doing?"

"Just making some breakfast. Are you wanting any?" I looked around awkwardly as I feel his eyes on me. I use to feel so comfortable around him and now this is so awkward.

I glance down at my pajamas and see that I'm wearing gray short shorts and a tank top. Why have I not noticed until he was standing right there. He's making me feel so uncomfortable.

"No, I'm good. So you're moving to California?" He walks further in the kitchen and opens the fridge grabbing a water bottle. I'm just going to make my cereal and go into Sophie's room. Who invited him anyways.

"Yeah, college stuff." I shrug like its no big deal, but I have been talking non-stop about it.

"Oh, cool." His voice has eased up a bit.

"Yeah. I'm excited" I pour in the cereal and open the fridge and grab the milk, pouring it into my bowl. Putting everything away, I grab a spoon and bowl. "Alright, cya." I wave my spoon and start heading down the hallway.

"Bye, Anna."

I reach Sophie's room and sit on the end of her bed. It's so strange to me that you can go from 'I love you' to how that conversation went. It's a bit sad. I don't want to date him again, but does it have to be this awkward? I take a few bites of my cereal and think about him and our old relationship. He was the type of boyfriend that had an on and off switch, realistically speaking. He completely ignored me around his friends, but when it was me and him alone he was pretty decent. Basically he was two-faced and I can't handle that. He also found out my weaknesses and used them against me. He used to make me feel like I wasn't good enough. I always felt forced to do what he wanted and make him happy. I learned a lot last year. I made the right choice leaving him. Currently, I still care about him, but it's over and it will never happen again. Like never.

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Everyone is finally awake. The boys are playing some video game in the living room and Sophie and I are getting dressed in her room.

"So that's all you two said?" Sophie asks me. Pulling a white lace top onto her body, along with black shorts.

"Yeah, it's not like we see each other a lot and I don't have anything to say to him." I put on a simple light tan dress with colored flowers on it and pull out one of Sophie's gray sweaters from her closet. I slip the larger sweater on and smile at Sophie.

"It looks good" she returns my smile. "I would just think he would've said more to you, he had a lot to say last night."

"What? What'd he say last night?" I'm staring at Sophie for her to continue.

"Just about how he misses you, he might've been drunk, because I heard him also talking about how great your sex was." She moves her blonde hair that goes a little below her shoulders out of her face and looks at me.

"What? oh my god. Who was he telling that to?" Why would Tyler say that? He must've been drunk. I'm so glad I'm not dating him anymore, I would've slapped him.

"Chris and a couple of other guys, I think."

"Wow, I should slap him." I say revealing my thoughts. I'm actually embarrassed and mad he told his friends that, drunk or not.

Sophie nods her head and agrees with me. "he's a disgusting bastard. The first couple of times we had sex, it wasn't even that great." I add to lighten the mood and we both laugh together.

She high fives me, "just forget him, next thing you know we'll be in Cali living it up and he'll be the last thing on your mind."

I smile to her, "that's true, thanks Soph." This is why I love her.

I finish applying mascara and stand next to Sophie as she puts on a little eyeliner. I was never a fan of eyeliner, because I wear contacts and I'm always so scared of it getting stuck in my eye. I'm scared of a lot of things, actually.

When we walk down the hall, you can hear clicking noises and a few "Over there" "go". When we walk into the living room, they are all four on the couch, controller in hand.

"Okay, last one. Then we're leaving." I watch intently on the screen. When they finally stop the round, I forget what I just said. I wait for them to press start, but instead it goes black and they all stand up. Oh, okay. I laugh to myself and slip my black vans on. We all step outside. I'm loving this summer weather, which explains my dress.

I start walking and soon feel an arm wrap around my shoulders. I look up and see Tyler.

Great.

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Hey thanks for reading, I promise 5sos will be in this soon. I'm sorry that this one might be a bit boring! Tell me what you think so far.