I just don't get it
I don't get you
I try and try and try
To stop being this idiotic, embarrassing and ugly girl you see me as
But why?
Why should I try to prove to you something I'm not sure is real
I mean.. I agree with you
I'm not gonna sit here and cry, saying your just delusional
And a bully
But I'm gonna nod my head and let you know
I understand
I understand the pain you go through
When you have to look at me
Because i feel the same.
Don't forget
I'm the one who has this face, this personality
I'm the one who looks in the mirror
Only to see my reflection
I hate it
But do you know what I hate more
Is what you've done to me
I was never like this
I was confident
Smart
Happy
But you took that from me
And now I want it back
I deserve happiness as much as anyone in this world
Just like you
So let me take what's mine
Because I'm done hating myself
Your supposed to hate yourself when you've done something unforgettable
Like hurting someone,
Breaking the law of killing someone
But I've done none of them
The only crime I've committed is letting you take the best from me
In exchange for the worst
But let me tell you something
You may have won the battles
But I've won this war
<copyright Lucie Jenkins 2k17>
