Mr.Flirt

Dirty

      I felt the water rinse my body, the soap rinsing off as I showered back home. I still felt dirty. I need to be more careful... I walked out of the shower drying myself. I stared at myself in the mirror, a tear fell down. I'm crying.. I feel so disgusting , even also I felt used. I was used for someone else's pleasure. I wiped as much tears as I could before jumping to the sound of knocks. No one was home expect for Levij and I, but he is sleeping. "Yin? What's taking you so long? You've been in there for like an hour now. " Kaiji's voice yelled from outside. "S-sorry! I-I'll come r-ight out." I said choking in my words. "Yin?..." Kaiji said softly. "Are you okay?" Before I knew it the door opened and I was standing in front of him with only a towel wrapped around my waist. Fuck. "K-Kaiji!" I screeched. "It's fine it's fine, your not fully naked in front of me." He looked at me and noticed quite a few things. "You are so thin... have you been eating la— ARE YOU CRYING?!" I turned away hoping he wouldn't see more of how horrid I looked. "Hey look change your clothes and we will talk this out when you come out. I'll be in the living room." Kaiji said softly in such a caring voice as he left. I smiled slightly as I let more tears fall.

      I walked out of the bathroom to see Kaiji in the living room as he said he would be. Wait... I couldn't tell Kaiji, he would be disgusted. He would look at me different, he would think differently of me. I felt a sharp pain hit my chest as I tried to sit down on the couch. I felt Kaiji's eyes staring at my every move. "Are you okay?..." Kaiji said softly. I bit my lip whether I could tell him or not. I nodded my head in a yes. "You sure?" I looked down before answering. I turned my head up as I gave a big smile and thumbs up . "I'm Great!" I said trying to sound happy. Kaiji didn't look happy though, he looked pissed. He grabbed my wrist, just like how Takami held me down. "LET GO!!" I yelled as I yanked his hand off, afterwards holding my hand away from him panting. "Something happened didn't it?" Kaiji said frowning as he looked at me. "It's non of your business!" I said holding back tears, I couldn't tell him. I care to much of him, he is to important in my life. "You can tell me anything.." Kaiji said. I'm sorry but I can't tell you this. "Im going to get some sleep..." I said before walking away. Kaiji watched me as I left the room hoping he could have done something. "Tch.." Kaiji clenched his fist angrily.

         Laid in bed looking at the wall, I turned over to find another wall. I felt as if I were trapped. Kaiji and I share a room, our beds on two sides of the room. Why do I care about Kaiji all the sudden? Could it be.. No it can't. I need to find a girlfriend and quick before anything else happens. I slowly submerge myself under my blanket looking at my hands. That one night remained in my head replaying and replaying. I slapped my cheeks wanting to forget, forget everything. As I remembered that horrid night I felt my member get a little twitchy. Fuck, why would I get hard thinking of something horrible.. I was raped.. drugged, but.. it felt good. WAIT WHAT AM I SAYING ?! I shut my eyes completely as Kaiji opened the door walking through, without a shirt more pants, just boxers. By now I haven't gotten used to it. "You are still awake aren't you?" Kaiji said standing in front of me. I opened my eyes to see his face not far from mines. "Look, I'm here if you need me okay?" Kaiji said with a smile giving a thumbs up. Yea.. sure....

This is sooo short but I'm in school , and homework and a new story got me busy lately, follow my Instagram @// jaegerfx  to see some updates , anyways !! DO YOU WANNA TELL KAIJI WHAT HAPPPEND ? Or should you keep it to yourself ?