NO LONGER HIS PET [BOOK 2] |JANIEL|[COMPLETED]

CHP 2

Joey

I HATE YOU..

I put my hand over my mouth..just realizing what I said to my mother..my own mother..

I start hearing a pair of footsteps get louder and louder..then seeing my mother by my door..I look down at the floor..disappointed at myself for taking my anger out on my mother..I know she means well..her job as a mom is to protect me..Joey..I snap back to reality hearing my mom say something to me...

Joey: Mom..

Joey's mom: do you really hate me?

Joey: mommy no..I'm sorry it has been hard for you knowing that I am shutting you out..it's just mom you don't  understand..how much I love him...

Joeys mom: plops down next to Joey... I know sweetie I know..sighs with sadness..I know you love him...you know how I know?

Joey: how?

Joey's mom: I heard your phone going off..from the other room... it was a school night I didn't want it to wake you so I rushed in there to take the sound off your phone..and while I was adjusting your phone I saw your lock screen wallpaper..I think it was Daniel holding his hand out for you to grab it then I realized later your home screen..was Daniel smiling..

Joey: I know what your thinking.."doesn't it hurt even more seeing his pictures" maybe it does mom..but I still wanna remember how he looks like..

Joey's mom: gives a tiny smile..I am sorry Joey...

Joey: for ?

Joey mom: for doing that to you I know sometimes you can't even look at my face without being disgusted..I know I should have given you a chance to explain..but I wasn't thinking straight..I really really am sorry..

Joey: I know you are mom..but you need to stop feeling guilty...I already knew sooner or later this would happen..I knew the risks and yea we can't do anything about it anymore..all we can just do is forgive and forget..

Joey's mom: your right..I just hate seeing you like this..

Joey: i hate seeing myself like this too...
But I will make it..I promised myself to not let go..

Joey's mom: even though I am still processing the fact that you dated your teacher doesn't mean I wouldn't be at  your wedding if you married him..I wouldn't miss your wedding..what kind of mother would I be if I missed it?

Joey: I don't know..but I already know you are a good mom..and I love you..pulls her in for a hug..

Joey's mom: I love you too..

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It's a little later..oh what am I kidding it's 2 am..I'm in my living room in my couch all cuddled up watching a movie...a horror..yea I know..I start to shut my eyes slowly..

Then I fell asleep..I'm dreaming about the time when Daniel and I watched a horror movie in this exact spot..me wrapping my body around him..feeling him..it's almost like it's so real but it's not..it happened a long time ago..but my body just can't understand I'm living in the past..

Daniel

Yea it's Daniel..still alive I don't know how..but I'm glad I'm alive..maybe I do have a chance to go back into the real world and find him...him..

Anyways..I'm laying down in one of the bunk beds..looking at the same old damn ceiling thinking "is it days, months, or years?" Just not knowing what is going on in the outside world is giving me anxiety...I sigh a bit sitting up a bit from the bunk bed looking around the room..seeing the same old people and the same old room..I lay back down on the bunk bed..gazing off just thinking of him..just thinking where is he? What is he doing right now? Is he thinking of me? Did he move on? I have so many questions but mine can't be answered till I get out of here...i don't know how long I still have to be here..but I'll just be here waiting..