Fillie| Ruin

one.

        Chapter One OF: RUIN

i sighed, making my way out of my front door, tightly grasping my black and white duffle bag that hung around my neck. i hopped onto my bike, and started making my way to his house.
                             his.
my brother and best friend. people always tell us that it's a good idea that we should date our best friend, but let me just tell you, i think that they're utterly and completely correct.

we've been best friends since as long as i could remember
. me and finn have been through everything together, thick and thin, high and low. he's always there for me, and i'm always there for him. i can tell when he's pissed and i can tell when he's lying.

i can tell when he definitely wants to be left alone, and i can tell when he's genuinely freaking happy.

when i first realized that finn started developing feelings for me was when i told him that i had a crush on this kid named jaeden in the 11th grade, and for me personally, it looked like he didn't take the whole thing so well when i told him because when i looked through those beautiful hazel brown eyes i saw pure jealousy in them. once the current event occurred of me talking about the boy i liked, i grabbed finn by the forearm and pulled him to the side for we could talk about the problem that he had with jaeden.

at first i wasn't fully aware what he was trying to get at, but than when i finally caught on i realized that he was asking me to be his girlfriend. in that very moment i immediately froze and my mind went so blank cause i never imagined in a million years that my own bestie was going to have feelings for me. i know i'm going to sound insecure when saying this, but why did he like me if i wasn't even that pretty from the rest of the girls at our school anyways. i wearied glasses and i had short hair like a boy, and plus i didn't really fit in because some people thought i was a "dyke" and the other half thought i was a "nerd" or a "freak".

Those words that repeatedly kept playing in my head on and on would make me cry myself to sleep for how cruel people truly are. i would some times try to tell finn at lunch what would be bothering me, but i'll always chicken out because some girls would give me cold glares that sent daggers my way for even talking to him, and it definitely made me feel very uncomfortable, so i wouldn't even try to talk to him about it.

weird right how i let all of these ignorant people walk all over me like i'm not human.?
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Poorly written chapter I know, but hey I'm not perfect and if I keep on practicing my writing skills than I'll definitely improve even more. By the way please go check out my lovely friends stranger_thingss11 book and please go give her a follow because she means the world to me 💜

Bye bye for now loves!!