Saving Carly

Chapter 9

I woke up still in Nialls bed. I looked and Niall was asleep next to me. I sat up and had a pain down below. I got up and walked down stairs sitting on the couch. Man this house was massive. I spotted a guitar sitting in the corner then noticed it was mine. It's gorgeous best thing I have bought. It was red body with little black hearts drawn on. I picked it up and started playing a song My mum had wrote and started singing it.

Your hand fits in mine
Like it's made just for me
But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me

I know you've never loved
The crinkles by your eyes
When you smile
You've never loved
Your stomach or your thighs,
The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh, it's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved
The sound of your voice on tape
You never want
To know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you,
It's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you
And you'll never treat yourself right, darling, but I want you to.
If I let you know I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you, oh.

And I've just let these little things slip out of my mouth
'Cause it's you,
Oh, it's you,
It's you they add up to
And I'm in love with you
And all these little things

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you,
It's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all your little things

My mum wrote it when she found out I didn't like myself at all. I noticed tears running down my cheek but I didn't wipe them I just whispered I love you mummy forever. I heard someone cough behind me and I turned round wiping my eyes. It was Louis was standing in boxers and a shirt.

"Eh hey how long have you been there." I said sipping my eyes again.

"Not long. Carly that was really good who wrote it?" Louis asked sitting next to me putting an arm around me and pulling me into a hug.

"My mum wrote it just before she died when she found out about me not liking the way I look." I said wiping away more tears. "Sorry it's just hard to talk about her and her death. I loved her so much and she left me with my stepdad my life just changed."

"I know it's hard but it will get better. So I take it those cuts on your arm are self inflicted?"

"Yeh I have been really low and it just helped." I looked a Louis and he looked back. "Liam showed me his I take it use all knew."

"Yeh we knew. No one except us, Simon and Paul knows." He sighed getting up. "Come on let's go make breakfast."

"Okay I ain't that good." I said getting up and walking through to the kitchen and grabbing food.

After we finished cooking all the boys came downstairs and sat with me and Louis. Niall sat next to me a hand on my knee. I turned and smiled at him putting my hand on his.

"You okay today? If you want we can go to the park just us." Niall whispered in my ear.

"I'm okay. That would be nice thanks can we take the guitars?" I whispered back. I had finished eating and so had he.

"Sure. We can have a sing song. Lets go get ready." Niall said as he hopped up helping me up.

We walked upstairs talking about his guitar then I got to his room and everything hit me at once. I leaned against the wall and breathed heavy

"Carly are you okay?" Niall says putting his hands on my waist.

"Yeh last night just came rushing back to me." I said looking at him our faces inches apart. "Niall, will this be like a date?"

"Yeh I suppose" he said moving closer kissing me I kissed back I think I love this guy he is amazing........

A/N sorry it's short I have exams so been studying like nothing else :)

Comment on the song part and what you think of narly or ciall