Years and Years -Namjin-

My children, my boys

I'm still learning about life

My woman brought children for me

So I can sing them all my songs

And I can tell them stories

I didn't expect it. Honestly, I didn't. I don't even think I wanted children. But there I was, my daughter was sitting on my lap, my son curled up next to Seokjin.

Five years ago, we adopted the orphaned twins. They were eight-years-old now. They were our world.

They loved listening to Seokjin sing. He sang to them every night. His voice was like honey to me and the kids, we adored it. I'd be lying if I said he hadn't sung me to sleep a couple times.

Occasionally, I'd rap for them. Slowly, calmly, or at least as much I could. They liked that, too.

However, what they enjoyed most was our stories. About our performances and fans, and especially the other members, Jungkook in particular.

It was sweet, however I, as well as Seokjin would always feel a pang of sadness when speaking about it.

BTS had disbanded. We'd had many great years of success, but we were ready to move on with our lives. Our families.

Most of my boys are with me

Some are still out seeking glory

And some I had to leave behind

My brother I'm still sorry

Life is not easy. Neither is fame.

However, Jungkook kept along the path. I'm happy for him, truly. He's making his way in the world, seeking his own glory. I'm proud.

But then, there was Yoongi. An amazing soul. Talented and kind. I haven't spoken to him for four years, since we disbanded. The life he lives is not what I want my kids to see.

I tried not to think about it, but when I did, I had Seokjin. He's kiss me on the cheek, run his fingers through my hair. He'd whisper, "I love you, Namjoon. So does Yoongi. He misses you as much as you miss him." Then, he song me a sweet song, from back in our days of fame. When I still had all my boys with me.

But it's okay. I'm okay.

I have Kim Seokjin. Through him, the other members live.

Through him, I live.

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a/n sorry for the long wait and crappy update