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Me, Myself and I :) and maybe YOU :)
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I just want to share my experince being a FANGIRL :)
Foreword
Annyeong! I’m Pat, 19 years of age and I’m a fan girl of a Korean boy band called F.T. Island and my bias is Lee Hongki. I want to share my experience being a fan girl and maybe lots of you guys can relate to my story.
Did you guys already do everything to save money from your allowance to buy the new released album of your bias? Did you already spend time on the computer just to have an update about them? And did you ever been called crazy because of being a fan girl? Did you already cry because of your bias? If yes, I think we can relate to each other’s story.
It started when I was in high school it’s around October 2008. My friend is busy having a sound trip during our break time, and I grab the other earphone and listen too, (that time I have no idea what is kpop) the song that she is listening is “F.T. Island” by F.T. Island then I told her “what is that?! Can you even understand that?! Change the song please” then she played “The One” by F.T. Island also then I said “Who is this singing?” and she told me and let me watch some music videos and Hongki got me already. When I got home, I immediately searched everything about him, I downloaded all their songs, downloaded all music videos, and it feels so good. Days have passed and I realized that I am already a fan girl who is dying over F.T. Island, singing their songs and doing Hongki moves.
My friends can’t understand me. They always say to me that I am crazy, I’m just wasting my time for the Korean boys, and I’m just wasting my money. It hurts me when they say things like that because for me, I love this people whom you called Korean boys, the time I’m spending with the internet to see them is one of my happiest and precious time, and the money that I use to buy things related to them are the most precious things for me. I have much experience like that, my friends are insulting my bias and it felt that I am the one whom they are insulting but I can’t fight for it because they will never understand me.
I am learning Korean writings and Language, I buy books and downloading lessons from the internet, and again they will tell me it’s a waste of money and a waste of time studying it. I have an experience a friend borrowed my Korean lesson book and read some words and he kept on laughing and repeating the words like “annyeong haseyo” with a very joke tone and I feel very angry and mad because it’s the language that I wanted to learn and I’m learning it whole heartedly with my very focused mind and he just laugh and laugh on it.
My cell phone’s wallpaper is Hongki of course and one of my friend saw it and keep laughing again and saying “who’s that ugly gay on your phone?!” and keeps on laughing but I can’t get mad because I must understand that for them it is all nothing but on the back of my mind, “hey the person that you are calling the ugly gay is one of the most important person in my life!” and a situation like that really hurts me a lot.
In the Philippines, there is an album launch of the album “Return” and “Beautiful Journey” of F.T. Island and I attended that event and bought the two albums and I joined the competition where I need to pose with my bias very creatively and the good thing is I won and the price is the standee of Hongki. I was very happy when I saw the results. I called my friend who introduces me to F.T. Island and told her that I won and if she can go with me and claim my price but she replied “don’t ask me to go with you! It’s a shame, it is so big, bigger than you, how will you bring that home?!” obviously my friend quitted being a fan girl; her reason is she is old enough for that stuffs. It made me feel bad because she is my friend and ex-fan but I thought she will understand me.
When I am with my friends and I sing Korean songs, they will laugh and say that I am being crazy again. And I didn’t get very affected because I am used to it.
I also cried because of my bias. When I found out that Hongki and applegirl are being very close I cried because I got jealous very much. When there is a very bad news about them, when Oh Won Bin left the group and many more time. I also cry when I realize many things like I really can’t be with them, that I am just imagining things, that I am protecting, loving and defending a person that doesn’t even know that I’m existing. But after I cried a lot and saying things like that, I’m still here, loving and supporting my bias sincerely. I Love you Lee Hongki ♥
My story is already long but I hope you liked it and I hope that you have related some of your experience to my experience being a fan girl. Jeongmal kamsahamnida.
