Jimin's P.O.V
"Jungkook-ie please tell me that I'm not the only one who heard the click of a camera." I said as I'm petrified to know what would happen if the school found out about our 'relationship'.
"Thank god I thought I was crazy, but who would be here at this time, well of the people at our school."
"Fuck this isn't good Kookie!" I said because I'm now super stressed out.
"Jimin-ie hyung, what would we do if the school found out about our relationship?" He asked me I could hear the tone of worry in his voice.
"That's the thing I don't know what they would do whether they would allow it or not." I said as if I don't know because that's the truth I just don't know what would happen. "I would hope if the school would find out that they would allow it, but I really doubt it." I tell Jungkook.
"But, this will probably end up as some Romeo and Juliet forbidden love story when it comes to school, but it's not like we have PDA (public display of affection) during school, considering we keep this more of a secret. At least they can't forbid us to continue this at home." I said now feeling less worried as we continue it at home, but it's not like we do show affection towards each other at school.
"Wait I shouldn't be worried so much of what the school would do it's what the students would do, you realize how big of a scandal this would be." He said sounding even more worried. "Why didn't we think of that! This would and most likely will be even worse than the Chunhei and Baekhyun scandal!" Oh my, that was bad.
"Exactly, We know how terrible that was, let's continue on and try not to worry about it though, it could've been something else." He said.
"Yeah you're right we are probably worrying for nothing. But let's head home and watch some movies." I said knowing that would take our minds off of it.
"Ok, but no sex, I'm still sore." He said as I chuckled.
"Ok that's fine, but we can still make out, correct?" Iquestion.
"Yes we can" He chuckles. "I just don't want to be even more sore." I did go pretty hard last night though.
"Then we got a deal" I smirk, I bet he already knows we are going to be kissing and making out the whole time, I definitely don't mind, his lips are like a drug.
Jungkook P.O.V
His lips are like a drug, I can never get enough. Oh and I know we probably will be making out the whole movie, I love that, it just means more time to taste him and his delicious cherry lip balm flavored lips.
"Ok let's get going though." I said
"Ok I'm ready." He shrugged.
"Hey, Minnie?" I ask.
"Yes?"
"Do you ever feel like, you would like to die, but then you realize you only have one reason to live for?"
"Kookie? Do you feel this way?"
"Yes, sadly I do, I may be away from my dad finally, but the depression and the suicidal thoughts don't just disappear." I confide, I can trust him, right?
"Kookie, please tell me everything, tell me all of your feelings, it may help a little bit. And thank you, for making me aware of the fact that you still have those thoughts, I still should've understood that depression and all your other shit that, you've had to go through doesn't just disappear over night." He said, concerned. No one has ever really been concerned for me.
"Well, for one thank you for being concerned for me, that's a first." I nervously chuckled as I said that. "Well my feelings are very scattered at the moment. One moment I want to kill myself out of self hatred, the next I'm crying because I realize there is one that cares for me, which is you. Not all of these scars are from my dad." I admit
"Kookie... you're scaring me, where are they from?"
"I cut myself sometimes, I do that when I feel worthless and there's noticing to live for, the pain just got comforting after a while, so I started doing it more often, but I've been clean for a couple of days because I haven't had access to a knife." I nervously admit.
"Kookie, I'm sorry you have to go through this." Jimin said, starting to tear up.
"Chim chim, please don't apologize, apologies mean nothing. Same thing with just showing sympathy, it's not helping me in any way, so if you'd like to help please doing something with me, just like this, talking to you has helped me feel better about things." I tell him, it's the physical actions that count, not the words of sympathy.
"Kookie thank you for this information, if you can supply me with what you need help on for when you do need help, it will be easier to help, and I promi-"
I shush him and put my finger on his mouth. "Shhh no promises, they are just meant to be broken, yet again another thing I have learned."
"Ok, no promise's but I will try to be by your side and help you."
"Thank you hyung."
"No, probably I will try to help you whenever I can."
"Water."
"Water?" He asks
"Yes, the feeling of drowning, without water."
"Huh?" He is confused.
"That's how I feel like I'm drowning but there is no water. But what I'm drowning in are my thoughts, no matter how positive they can be I always will feel like I'm drowning, but even with the most positive thoughts there will always be negative thoughts. Not a day goes by where I don't think 'I hate my life' or 'I hate how I look, I'm fat' I have so many thoughts like that. The negative thoughts always shine through, never the positive, they stick out." That is what I go through.
"Kookie-ah that's super deep, and this may mean nothing to you but means a lot to me, you're super beautiful and please don't think otherwise, and you're not fat, you are healthy and skinny, and not too skinny." There it is again, words trying to persuade me.
"Thanks, I appreciate this, one thing you could help me with is eating, if I don't eat please come to me and make me eat at least one bite of food, and make sure I won't go and throw it back up. And please keep the scale away, it's just another way to make me feel fat." I can't handle those things in my presence.
"Ok I will try, I p-" He cut himself off from saying promise, thank god.
"I only ask you one thing, and that is for you to stay with me, and to help me get better, well two things but, that's all I will ask." I don't need much more.
"Ok Kookie, I will stay with you whether you want me to or not, and I will try as best as I can to help you." Word I never thought I hear.
We arrive home, but all of the sudden I'm super light headed, I can barely walk.
"Jimin-ah he-" I say but I passed out right there I couldn't finish my sentence. I hear one last thing before I completely go unconscious.
"KOOKIE! NO, PLEASE STAY!" The tone of urgency in his voice scared me, but what's happening to me?
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Fanfiction[DISCONTINUED AS OF NOW] Park Jimin, Jeon Jungkook's teacher. Jungkook happens to be failing math, he needs the extra credit. Jungkook will do anything to get the extra credit, but what will happen along the way? What secrets will be exposed? Jeon J...
