BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEE-CRACK
"That stupid alarm clock..." I sighed rolling over after smacking the alarm clock slightly sitting up I peek at the time "7:30.." Sighing I slowly dragged myself out of bed still feeling a thick wave of drowsiness as I walked over to the tall white closet sliding it open with a soft clink.
"What should I wear...? It's a new school again.." I thought silently staring at the semi dreary clothes that hung in the closet "I'll have to pretend again.." The thought suddenly hit as I picked out some clothes throwing them onto the half made bed "I always have to pretend.."
The thought pegged at me again as I slid my hand across the cool mirror before opening the small cabinet located above the sink
"Pills..these will help me pretend..they always do right..?"
I stare at the bright orange and white bottles silent
"I'm terribly sorry Mrs.jackson. Your daughter has been showing these signs and we have no choice but to diagnose her as a [............................] we can provide medical attention and see what drugs we will have to prescribe to her.."
I always knew I had issues..I can never forget what he said that day. The look in my mothers eyes. She didn't even care in the slightest..but I don't care either. I had to pretend to be upset. I had to pretend. Like always..
"Hey! Runt!" An all to familiar voice rang out as I tilted my head to the side greeted by my drunk brother who grabbed me by the hair yanking me towards him
"Heh..nice not hearing you make any noise." The thick stench of alcohol seemed to swarm around me from his breath as he looked me up and down "makes this easier.." He yanked my hair and forced me to my knees as he started stuffing his hand into his boxer shorts "you can't scream you little mute slut!" He laughed as he soon revealed his erection forcing the thing against my face "Now your gonna suck it really good" he hiccuped after speaking and continued to rub it against my face before he moved back this gave me an opening, I moved my arms swiftly one hitting his arm forcing him to let go while using the other to upper cut him knocking him out cold.
"That should keep him out for a while.." I thought as I turned back to the bathroom taking a few pill bottles popping them open. Hearing the pills rattle in the container always reminded me of a baby's rattle. With a deep breath I swallowed my medicine and guzzled some water before washing up and changing.
"I cannot forget my note pad..I need it to pretend after all" I thought stepping over my unconscious brother and out the door
"It is a fresh start...no one knows and know one must know." I thought as I silently walked down the long sidewalk feeling the soft warmth of the sun.
"Pretend..." I thought as I grew closer to the school
"Pretend..."
"PEtend..!
"I HAVE TO PRETEND!!!!"
"I can never stop pretending, that's just what's wrong with me."
"It's always been what's wrong.."
"Ive never felt anything at all. So..pretending is the easiest way to even feel anything."
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A silent scream
RandomHello. My name is Riley grace Jackson, I always knew I was different from everyone else, of course I'm human although at times I wish I wasn't...Sadly this is real life.. as much as I would love for it to something like an anime or some fantasy ga...
