You don't know how to feel...
You feel empty about it.
But the tears won't stop. They keep on coming. A new set of tears every nano second.
Your chest feels like it's falling into a deep gaping hole. And you can't catch it.
Then your heart clenches and your chest tightens.
Still the tears are flowing.
That feeling is unbearable.
Your eyes feel heavy. They hurt and fat tears come out of them. Leaving you with burning eyes.
It's like everything's fallen and broken. But you can't pick it up. Or keep it from falling.
Then your stomach feels like it's being pulled inwardly. Like someone kicked your gut.
And a lump forms in your throat. Your throat hurts. Feels like something's stuck in it. No matter how much you try and gulp..it won't go away.
Your mouth starts to go dry.
Your hearing stops working. Noises are faraway and of no importance at the moment.
Then you run out of breath. You can't seem to take a breath in and when you finally do, it's hard to let it out.
Your head starts to hurt from the strain.
Your legs feel like jelly.
Your body feels weak as fùck.
And the tears still don't stop.
The falling heart and clenching won't stop.
Everything keeps repeating and repeating.
And it all hurts so much.
You want it to go away.
But it won't.
Sure with time it will. And you'll get used to it. But that's in the future. Not now.
I think it's called pain.
Whichever pain may it be.
Pain is physical.
