"You know I would love to get a drink with everyone. But I'm sorry, Q I have the baby. I can't leave her alone and I can't take her to the bar." I told him even though I wish it wasn't true. He continued to look at me and gave me a smirk. I have him...
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Mad POV:
An hour pasted and the text was still there. Ugh.
Q(t) (haha, get it? QT... like cutie?)
-Hey. We both know what happened last night. I'm really feeling weird about it. Can I see you some time today? I need to talk.
Fine, I'll reply.
~hey. Yeah I know I get it. But I would just must rather forget everything. I mean a lot of stuff happened last night and things were said that I know weren't meant. I'll just see you Monday, Brian.
Immediate response
-Brian?! Since when have you called me that? What happened to Qt???
~I'm sorry. Just not in a good mood.
-please Mad. Can I come over soon? I need to talk to you. I'm starting to remember everything and I need to tell you how I really feel. And we need to work this out.
~fine Q, but I'm dropping off the baby at my aunts house. Every 3rd Saturday they get her for a bit. I'll text you when I get home.
-thank you honey, this means a lot.
I didn't respond. I figured I would wait until I was home. Wait.. honey?
I changed the sleeping baby in the bathroom before heading out of the cafe. I drove to my aunts house about 40 minutes away. Dropped off my Emma, and drove back to my house. I waited a bit before texting Q. When I did text him, I swear he sped over here. I saw him pull up but he waited a few minutes before turning his car off and getting out. He was wearing boots, nice black pants, and a short sleeved blue button down shirt tucked in. Dressed nice? Man, I am wearing comfy clothes should I change before answering the door? There's no time, he's at the door.
He knocked on the door. And I waited a bit before opening the door for him. He looked up at me with the saddest eyes. Was he about to cry? Something else must have happened.
"Are you alright?" I was quick to ask. I reached out to touch his shoulder. He appreciated it.
"No. I've been holding shit in for a long time." He said looking back down.
"Come on in, let's sit down." I said and moved out of the way. He came in and looked around as if he never saw my house. "You know you could have just came in. You do have my key after all." I told him. He shrugged his shoulders and put my key back on my counter.
"Eh, didn't feel right just barging in. Trying to be polite." He said. He walked right into the living room and sat down. He put his head back and rubbed his eyes with his hands. I came into the room with 2 glasses of water.
"Alright. Let's talk hun." I told him sitting down. He froze up. "Now remember. Just talking." I said before he made any move. He straightened himself up and looked me dead in the eyes with his puppy eyes. Ugh, why must he look like that?
"Listen, Mads... you know how much I love you. We have been such good friends for about 3 years now and I wouldn't want to change anything. Well, I do but it wouldn't be right." He started going on.
"Q, then what do you want to do?" I started getting annoyed. I don't know why but I felt bad for saying it like that.
"Well, I'm sorry Madison. We should keep this a one night thing." He said looking me in the eye, then down at his shoes. I froze up and my heart completely sank. That's it? The end of us? Well to be fair it never started.
"Oh..." was the only thing to come out of my mouth.
"Mad, look. It wouldn't be right for us to go on. We work together, I mean if anything were to happen to us if we did date, it would be way too uncomfortable and I don't want you to end up leaving your job. Or me for that matter." He stopped for a second. He took a sip of water and cleared his throat. I still sat froze.
"Like I've said I've been holding shit in for a long time. Truth is, I want to be with you more then anything. But due to our jobs, it would not be the correct thing to do. And I even try to like the same stuff as you and help you with things and do things with you just to get closer! But I still can't seem to enjoy the taste of sushi I'm sorry!" The last part made me smile a bit.
"I'm sorry Mads. I truly love you and that's why I don't want us together. I'll ruin you, I'll hurt you. I mean after all my relationships just don't work out. I don't want to hurt you." He finished.
"Brian. Wow. You are really being a gentlemen here. I really mean that. I'm really happy that you are looking out for me. But hey, my relationships don't work out either. We have both been cheated on and we both know exactly how that feels! It doesn't feel good. Now if I experienced that, why would I do the same to you when I know how it feels?" I say. He nods. " and you will ruin me? The only thing you would ruin is my single status. I don't let people ruin me or bring me down. I've seen you and know you. You will never ruin who I am or what I will become. You'll make it better." I finish. He looks up at me.
"So are you saying you want to date?" He says and raises one eyebrow. I blush.
"Well I'm not saying I don't want to. Just saying if that's where this is headed. I mean I did already see you in the bedroom so I already experienced that ." We laugh.
"What do you want to do here?" He asks. This question gets me. I think for a minute.
"I think that if you want to stick around, you should. If you want to help me with parenting, you should. And if you didn't want to date me, then you should still be my Best friend." I say. He smiles. He stands up and holds out his hand to lift me up off the couch. I put down my drink and let him stand me up. He pulls me into a great big hug. I love how he was just tall enough that I could still reach my head into his neck.
"Thank you so much Maddy. I really love you." He says into me. He sways us. I giggle a bit.
"I love you too Q boo." I say and we release. He smiles at me. And I smile back. But still one question in my mind.
"So what are we doing here? What are you going to do." I say to him. He smiles more.
"I'm gonna stick around with you for a bit and help with the baby. Help you around the house. Then when I'm ready and I get the feel of everything, I think then I'll officially ask you out." He finishes. He makes me smile so much.
"Thank you lord for putting this goof ball here." I say wanting to tear up. I mean not even my own parents have offered to come and help at my house. It's always 'bring her here, come to your brothers house with her!' Blah blah blah.
We talk for a bit about normal things and watch some TV for a bit.
"Hey want to come over and meet the cats? I know you always wanted to see them!" He says in full excitement.
"Well who could pass up that opportunity?" I say. He was giggling with joy and almost ran out my door.
