Our Continuous Cycle

"No Sasha. I'm done. Done with all the shit you've put me through. Done with all the secrets, the lies, your extreme mood swings. All I new for you to do is just stop. You've put me through too much. sent me over the edge and I am done. You can't keep crawling back saying your sorry over an over again. I love you. I really do but I can't take anymore heartbreak and anymore of this pain so just go. I'm done and we are over."

Did I just say that? what was I gonna do now? Could I do this without her? I really don't know. I hope so though.

"Fine. If that's the way you're gonna be maybe I should just go fuck all 4 of your bestfriends. Actually that sounds like a pretty good plan to me." She looked at me with an anger that only I would see. It hurts to see this but I guess we brought it upon eachother.

"You don't mean that!" does she? "You're just saying that to hurt me more than you already have."

"I do mean it and I mean this as well. I never want to see you again. Don't talk to me. Don't call me. To hell, give me your phone and I will delete my number." She was past angry. "Do you hear me. I NEVER want to see you again and that's final. Bye."

When she slammed that door and walked out of that room, after why she said to me. I fell to the floor anguished by the pain. I guess after the 4 years of shit we've been through, I never knew how much I would miss her, but here I am crying over a girl who didn't give a single fuck about me.