Wanting (**A NovaHD Fanfic/Smut**)

Part One: Little Confession

(**A/N: This is my first fanfic/smut or whatever. I've read many before, but that doesn't make me good at this stuff... But just a warning: It gets a little graphic this chapter. Not straight up smut, but still a little on the mature side. Read on at your own risk. Thanks X3**)

~ALEKS POV~

He never noticed the effects he has on me.

He never noticed how I look at him and bite my lip, thinking the dirty thoughts I do.

He never noticed that I close my eyes for a second  when he looks straight at me.

These feelings for James... I'm not sure how long I can hide them. I realized I was bi when he entered my life. I've always wanted him, always loved him. The only ones that know are Kevin and Eddie, my two closest best friends. These feelings have existed ever since we looked straight into each others eyes. I feel a jolt of heat and electricity run through me every time we look at each other, but I have to straighten myself out whenever I realize that I probably have no effect on him... Not the kind he has on me...

We were playing battleblock, and he surprised me when he said something... something completely unexpected...

"If we get the time, I'll... I'll jerk off to a picture of you!"

In the video, I giggled and as usual had my "yo, wtf" attitude. But on the inside, I was holding back a moan. Even though I knew he really wouldn't do it, just hearing anything near what I yearned to hear was pure music.

I yearned to hear him grunt and moan above me, to force himself into me until I was begging and screaming. I yearned for him to tease me until I couldn't take it anymore. I yearned for him to growl in dominance in my ear as he fucked me relentlessly... roughly. I yearned for him to yell my name as he cums into me. I yearned for him. I needed him...bad. I don't think I can hide this anymore...

I've made up my mind. After we're done recording, I'm going to come out and say it. I'll have to deal with whatever comes next, but no matter what it is, confessing to the man I love will take an unneeded weight off of my shoulders.

~JAMES POV~

He didn't think I actually did it... He didn't think I actually jerked off to a picture of him. I am a man of my word, and when I say something, it is going to be done. When the golden clock appeared on the screen, I immediately screamed "OH! WE GOT THE TIMEEEE!" while clapping my hands. "Hold on a sec..." I said while searching for a picture of Aleks.

"What picture are you gonna use."

His deep voice. His deep voice is what immediately set me off. He doesn't even know the feelings I have for him. If I told him, I don't think he'll feel the same. I don't even think he'd give a fuck! I'd just be left alone to silently suffer as I look at him from across the room and picture little scenes in my head...

Little scenes that will probably never be brought to life.

I decided upon using his banner on his Youtube channel at the time. It showed the top half of his slender body. He was wearing a short sleeved Machinima shirt, showing off his one tattooed arm.

**(A/N: Keep in mind that this episode of Battleblock came out like 8 months ago, when Immortal's banner was still him standing there. I know it has changed, but this was eight months ago. If I made any mistakes on what they said, please let me know in the comments so I can fix it. The episode was titled "TIME JERKING" and it was number 58. Feel free to go watch.)**

It was fairly easy jerking off to the sight of him... Hell, it was easy just thinking about him. Just imagining his pink lips wrapped around me, those perfect pink lips moaning my name and asking for more as I pinned his slender arms above him. Imagining his beautiful brown eyes darkening in lust and want, just for me. I stroked myself harder and harder, looking at his YouTube page and thinking these things. I wanted his hand to be where mine was... This final thought sent me over the edge and I came, screaming. I was debating on yelling his name to make it all the more pleasurable for me, but I know he would feel really awkward and probably ignore me for a little while.

That was the last thing I wanted. The pain of being denied by someone you love is an unbearable breaking sensation that I would never want to happen. I never want to tell him how I feel because I know he doesn't feel the same and probably never will. I don't want him to deny me, I don't want anything existing between us to end because of my little confession.

(A/N: I know I'm getting annoying, but please tell me if you want more of this. I'll probably continue this with a part two, maybe three, but I think thats about as long as it will get. It'd be great if I had some support so I know you want more. Buuuut I'll probably make it anyways. Any comment is appreciated!  I hope you enjoyed Part One: Little Confession!)