The 'good girls' revenge

Broken

'So, how do you do this again?' Julie's voice was shaky as tears beamed in her eyes.
So let's go back to 2 hours before.....

'No, no, there's no way I could be pregnant' if I thought she looked green before i couldn't even tell you how she looked now.
'Well, when was the last time you got your period?' I asked, feeling a little nauseous myself,
'Erm ermmm, omg immi, like 2 months ago, I've just been so stressed out with exams and Todd being a jackass all the time I totally forgot to remember' now I was really worried,
'Maybe we're just over thinking this, I mean, maybe it's not linked to pregnancy and your just coming down with the flu' I felt like I was grasping at air, it all made sense, no period, being sick and I hate to say it but she has been looking a little sick for a while now.
Silence echoed throughout the house before...
'Lets go and get a pregnancy test'

Which brings us here, both of us reading the box completely confused,
'Ok come on how hard can it be to pee on a sick, just go for it, I'll wait out here till your done' leaving the bathroom I started to pace the hallway. Why am I even panicking it's not even me in this situation, but I couldn't help it.
'Ok I'm done but I don't want to look, can you do it' sighing I opened the door looking down at a crumpled up Julie,
'Oh Jules' bending down I embraced her into a hug, tears dropped down onto my top
'I just don't want it to be his, I don't even care if I am, it's just the fact that it's all happened now and if I am having a baby it's going to grow up without a dad' I held her closer, stroking her back.
'Right I'm going to see ok, it's all going to be ok, no matter what happens I'm here for you' standing up I walked over to the sink, looking down I see a bright pink +.
Looking back at Julie and then back at the stick all I see is that bright pink + burned into my head. I don't even know how I'm suppose to tell her, I mean yeah she's bound to have guessed it by now but the reality of it might just push her over the edge.

Stepping back from the sink, I sank to the floor holding her hand,
'I think you already know' she looked down at the floor her tears intensifying, I felt so helpless and it's not even my future, well it kind of is but not as much as it is Julie's, I couldn't imagine how she was feeling right now.
'Do you know what you want to do?' I felt guilty even saying it,
'I can't keep it, I just can't, it would have a terrible life, no dad, no money for its future, a crappy mom'
'Hey that's not true! Your loving and kind and thoughtful, what ever you decide I know right now that if it's now or in the future your going to be an amazing mom!' I can't believe she would even think that.
'Can you arrange me a doctors appointment, I need to see how far along I am and what's the best options for me' nodding I quickly stand up and reach my phone out of my pocket.

'So as far as I can tell your about 7/8 weeks gone' the doctor smiled at us, looking from me to Julie, 'I understand that your only 17 and this can be quite scary for you' seriously someone should tell her face that, I don't know what was more creepy the fact that she don't stop smiling or the fact she hadn't blinked for a solid 10 minute,
'Your options are really as follows, you keep the baby, we will get you a midwife to visit you as often as possible, keep and eye on things, book in your first scan' ok seriously this was overwhelming for me so god knows how Julie was coping.
'Or there's abortion, we can get you booked in right away, we can tell you all the procedures that would take place and lastly there's adoption. It's all up to you Miss Jenkins, we are happy to help whatever you choose' looking at Julie she was just staring blankly at the ground,
'Doctor can we get back to you on that, this is all been such a big shock and I think Julie really needs some time to think'
'No problem, but the sooner she knows the easier it will be for us to help' smiling again, I thanked her as I pulled Julie out of the room into the fresh air. Considering how we were feeling the weather was extremely nice, the sun shone down burning my feet.
'Right so let's get you home before my toes start to fry' this made her smile a little nodding her head as we walked arm in arm down the street to my house.

Walking in, the not so familiar smell of home hit me. It felt like centuries since I had been back here, the wall paper in the hallway was still slightly bubbled, the white lilies dead, the petals crushed on the floor. I don't even know why mom pays rent for this thing, we never spend any time here, it's left like a rotting apple. Walking straight up to my room I dove onto my bed. Big mistake, one minute the beds still standing the next it's fell down like a pile of bricks,
'Oh no, my mom is going to kill me, I mean not anytime soon but Yano one day when she comes home and decides to look in my room' laughing, Julie just stands there that blank look on her face again.
'I want to keep it' she mumbled,
'Wait really? Omg omg, ok seriously nows probably not the time but I am so so excited'
Her smile was small but it was a start,
'But once it's born I want to give her/him away to a better family, one that can provide for it more than I can, one where it will have both parents and not just one'
The excitement vanished, I know it was selfish of me but I couldn't help it,
'Wait so your going to have this baby and just give it away, like its just nothing' I was so mad but I couldn't help it,
'Look at you Imogen, your moms never home, you don't have a dad and you spend your time with a family that's not even yours, I'm sorry but I don't want that for my child'
I felt like I had been shot right in the heart, tears welled up in my eyes until I uncontrollably lost it,
'How dare you! You know what?! Your right give it away, at least then it won't have a complete bitch for a mother, your just thinking about yourself, how is that child going to feel when it's grown up and realises It's whole life has been a lie and its own mom didn't even want it because she was too selfish to even try' I had never shouted at anyone like that before and as soon as she even opened her mouth to speak I screamed at the top of my lungs, 'Just get out of my house, I don't need you or your family I'll do it on my own' with that she marched out of the house slamming the door behind her.