Love And Bullets

A bad day

"Robert ,please stop i'm getting late!"
"Ok ok, just one more kiss!"
"Ugh i have to go now seriously. I'll call you when I'm free."
"Fine Ana, fine. But who even works on Saturdays? I mean, com'on!"
"I promise I'll make it up to you, ok?"- I said as I gave him a little kiss on the cheek and headed to the door.
"You work way to much, you should enjoy life. You are 27 for God's sake, not 47! ...Wait, that's all!?"- Robert complained as he understood that all he got was a little peck on his cheek.
I smiled and said "You're lucky you even got that so stop complaining. "

I grabbed my car keys and the phone and left while Robert decided to go at his place. I didn't feel like driving tho.

We have been dating for a month and we look perfectly fine, but I'm not completely happy. I like him, of course, but I don't love him. I'm not sure why but my body won't respond to his touch and I don't want to take things further, for now.

Why? That's what I was thinking the whole to the company.

I became the CEO of one of the most important companies two years ago. I'm not happy with my job either. I had bigger dreams, but when my father got sick, I had to take over. I love my father. He's always been the greatest role model in my life, even though we've had our misunderstandings over the years. He is the most important man in my life, the one I'll always choose over anybody else, he is my idol, my hero. I've always thought that the day I won't be able to choose between my father and another man, will be the day I'll be sure that I'm in love.

That day isn't here yet.

As all these thoughts were going through my head, I heard a familiar ringtone but it wasn't my phone. I stopped to understand where it was coming from. Oh wait... it was coming from my purse! I opened it and saw some Luca guy was calling. It was Robert's phone. Luca was probably a friend of his. It didn't surprise me that the name was Italian because Robert was Italian too. His real name was Roberto but he had changed it when he came to America.

"Imma just go to his house and give him the phone. Maybe that was an important call. Ugh I really need a coffee. Thank God Starbucks exists"
I grabbed a coffee on my way and started heading to Robert's house. The weather wasn't the best. The sun was shining just a little tiny bit through the grey clouds and the air was suffocating me. That means serious anger problems for me.

Yeah I seems like a nice, quiet person when you first meet me but when you get to know me you understand that you'd better stay on my good side. I stared at the sky for a few seconds. It looked like it was going to rain and that made my jaw clench. I like rain, the sound and the feel of it but she don't like people on rainy days. I'd much rather be alone. Everybody and everything else annoyed me.

I looked away from the grey sky, still walking but I hadn't predicted that I'd bump into someone. I felt my chest touch a male's chest, a strong, muscular one. Her coffee ended up all over his tight- fitted white shirt while his phone had fallen on the ground and had ended up with a broken screen.

"Watch where you're going, idiot!! Oh that's just GREAT!! THAT'S JUST SO GREAT!! Now I have to buy another coffee!! Get out of my way"- I yelled at his face and pushed him away while he was still shocked and couldn't think of a proper answer. I knew I overreacted but I couldn't help it.

Robert's phone rang again and it seemed like this Luca guy was impatient. Nah it wasn't him this time. It was un unknown number. He sure was getting on my nerves. I decided to force myself to calm down . By the time I got to Robert's house I was completely calm. I put a smile on my face and rang the doorbell. It took him some time to open it tho and when he did he looked like he just got out of bed.

"Hey hon. What's up?"- Ana smiled and waved her hand.

"Uh, A-Ana aren't you supposed to be working?"

"Yeah I am but I had accidentally taken your phone and i thought you might need it."

"Yeah, uh... thanks."

"Seriously Robert, do you ever do anything else except sleeping?" Ana says as she laughs.

"I actually wasn't feeling very good that's why I'm like this,"- he responds, smiling awkwardly.

"Oh my God are you ok? Maybe I should just stay with you"

"NO! Uhh... I mean, I know how much that company means to you. You should go and we'll....- but he was cut off by a female voice that came from inside his house.

"Who was it babe?"-and a girl who was only wearing a long white shirt appears at the door. I freezed. There's no word I can say. Then I shake my head and manage to say:

"Asshole"- that's all. He deserved way worse but I couldn't find the right word.

"Ana wait! I can explain! It's not what it looks like!" -Robert desperately tries to excuse himself as he sees me walking away and comes after me.

"Don't even dare to follow me,- I said pointing a finger at him,- don't you dare because I swear to God I will rip your face off."-and then I go.

Walking the streets,walking past people I'll probably never see again, everyone looked different, they looked bad, evil even. I kept my head up but my eyes down. No one would look at my eyes, they wouldn't notice there was something wrong as long as my head was up. No one sees underneath the surface, the cover. They don't care enough. A voice wakes me up from my thoughts.

"I think you have some serious explonation to do, miss"- a male voice said as he grabs my hand and turns me around so I can face him. And I did. It was him. The man I bumped into.

He was about to say something but for some reason he stopped and stared into my eyes. And I stared into his. His eyes were black, so black I thought I could drown in that darkness and no one would ever find me. There was something in his eyes that reminded me of a sea in a stormy night. So mysterious, with a hint of danger in them. The way he looked at me, I felt like an open book, like he could read my mind and see right through my soul. But he couldn't, right? I saw the way his face changed and then she remembered; HE was the one who spilled my coffe and didn't even say "sorry". For some reason this seemed more tragic than it normally would.

"Are you ok, miss?"- his voice was annoyingly calming and that didn't even make any sense!

I felt my jaw clench as I managed to say "You're all the same, aren't you?" And I wasn't talking about the coffee.

"GREAT!! THAT'S JUST GREAT!! LIKE I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH PROBLEMS ALREADY!! NO, IT HAD TO START RAINING!!!! WELL THAT'S SOO GREAT!!! ANY OTHER SURPRISES FOR ME TODAY?! AND DON'T YOU DARE TO IGNORE ME, OK? I'M TALKING TO YOU MR. GOD!!! This has to be the worst day ever!!"

*AN: so this is my first story ever and I hope you like the first chapter. I promise I'll get better in the future. Oh and pls excuse my grammatical mistakes. English is not my native language so there will be some mistakes (hopefully not much). Thank you for your understanding.*