My Release

The pain is burning

It makes me feel in control

until I lose power

and I fall deeper in my hole.

Every day I need it

It's my release

It makes me whole

like I've found my missing puzzle piece.

It gets harder to hide

They're all over my body

Long baggy clothes help

but they make me feel slobby.

No one tries to help

It's not like they knew

and the ones that do care

grow fewer and few.

The anger and sadness

make me produce more

All brothers and sister

All red and galore.

All the pain that I have

Emotionally and physically

bring me back from my high

Back to reality.

My need comes back

The clock ticks down

till I see that beautiful colour

The mixed red and brown.

The knife brakes skin

out comes the blood

The darkness takes over 

I hit the floor with a thud.

I've finally done it

I've reached my final goal

I've cut too deep

Someone, take my soul.