Notice Me

A strange twist.

I had the same god forsaken dream again. I sat up and huffed, running my fingers threw my red hair. My room was dark, except the small cornor of my room where my dim lamp sat. I thought about the dream again. 

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He held me closely to him as we sat in the rain, my body shaking and bloody, not all the blood was mine. He saved me, my chrissy is my hero...I sobbed into my hands as he just sat there holding me murmring soothing things into my wet hair. He killed him, he killed sabastion, the guy that has making my life a living nightmare sence he decided to take my virgintiy and make me his bitch. Then when chris came along he showed me how to be strong, and to take my life back, and when i did.. chris murderd sebstion for beating the shit out of me. I'm so weak a pathetic..

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I slid out of my bed wearing my big bagg shirt with swetpants my red hair falling to my knees I decided to go on my laptop and blog on Tumblr. I wasted about four hours. Then I had to get ready for school, I jumped into the shower, cleaning off my stress. Then looked threw my closet for some clean clothes. I pulled out my black skinny jeans and a my favroite sweater, it had and & symbol for my favroite band Of Mice & Men and it was floral and baggy. I slid on my vans, straited my red hair grab my bagg and headed for school. I walked to school, it was raining slightly today, it felt nice. It took me almost 45 minuets for me to reach school.

Heading inside and to my locker, I got many stares. I'm the diffrent girl at the school, but on the plus side i can't hear much of what they whisper behind my back, why? because i'm compleatly deaf in my right ear, my left is slowly fading too. It dosn't bother me at all. I headed to class, and the day started to go by quickly like normal, at lunch I sat with a few friends.

"That math test was so fucking hard, I hope i passed." My friend shelly said as she started eating her burger, Lizzy and morgan nodded in aggreement as they ate, I didn't eat school lunch i mean yuck.

"Hey Kay? hows your peircing? dose it still hurt?" Morgan asked me and I shook my head no "

it only hurts a bit if I switch the peircing." I got my eyebrow periced about four weeks ago. and It really didn't hurt anymore. Lunch passed as my friends contuined to gosip, the bell rang and I headed off to art class. I loved art more than anything. it gave me a peice of mind. I started working on my self pourtrate and skeched quietly with one head phone in my somewhat good ear

When school ended I ran to my locker and grabed my bag and left the hell hole, and started walking home. I still had in one head phone, listing to Memphis May fine, sleepless nights. it started to lightly rain again. my hair hanging into my face wet. I rached home faster than thismorning because I waled faster because it was starting to rain harder. By the time I was home I was soked I droped my bag on the couch and headed to my room. Both of my parents were gone, my mother on a business trip and my step dad works on the road. I didn't mind being alone, it gave me a peice of mind. 

Clothes changed I ploped into my bed my dog sallying jumping on my bed with me snuggling up to my side. I layed and watched Supernatural as I pet sally. My computer dinged hearing that I a message. I grabbed my laptop setting it on my lap. Sally huffing because I stoped petting her. I checked my Facebook seeing I had a message from unknown. I clicked it and opend it.

Chat box

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Unknown: i'm back

Kay: what?? who is this?

Unknown: your worst nightmare.

~unkown is offline.~

I fellt anixity rush to my veins, and a little bit of confusion. I didn't know who it was but I had a pretty good gess and even saying his name makes me feel ill. I jumped off my bed, feeling a panic attack taking over my body making it hard for me to breath. I headed into the bathroom and grabbed my pills poping two in my mouth. I keep taking deep breaths to catch my breath. It felt like my lunges were on fire. I looked in the mirrior as I cought my breath. I let out a sigh and sat on th floor of the bathroom. 

It took me about half an hour to leave the bathroom and to go back to my room. I slid into my bed and let sleep take over my body.

When I woke up i was awakend by my dog licking my face wining to be fed. I smiled softly and patted her head sliding off my bed and downstairs to feed sally. once filling her bowl she waisted no time digging in, i headed and grabed myself and orange, peeling it and heading back upstairs to my room. I blogged and ate my orange sence I had a little time for school, then I did my daily routene, shower, get dressed, and put sally in the kennel. Once I did all of it i walked to school with ear buds shoved in my ears blasting music. I was glad today was friday, and that I could relax for the weekend. 

when I reached school I headed to my locker grabbing my notebooks and such, heading to class. 1,2,3 and 4th period went by quickly and I soon met  my frends in the lunch room.as ususal i didn't eat, because school lunch is too bland.  I started to space off as my friends gosspied.

~inside kay's head~

We sat on a clif, our feet hanging off the edge. I smiled and looked up at the soft grey sky enjoying the cool weather. Chris wrapping his arms around me happily, it started to rain but we didn't care. It was too calming.. Then the lunch bell went off snapping me out of my thoughts. I sighed and headed to art class. I sat in my seat and started to draw my new O.C Jinx. You could says she is more of a bad ass me. 

when art was over I headed home, once reaching home I let sally out of her cage and headed inside letting her in. I grabbed strawberrys from the fridge and headed up to  my room to blog, untill I passed out with my laptop beside me.