All I ever was and will be

All I was was the apple of your eye the drug that got you high and now that you're not here how will I survive are you doing fine without me without me in your arms keeping you heart safe from harm the memories of you comeback in flashes and in sparks of how it felt to be loved how it felt to be special these feelings creep up on me when I'm alone never wishing I never met you just wishing I had more,more time to love you more time to creep into your heart but you pushed me away but it was to late because we've already fallen to hard to discard these feelings that we had and it just makes me so mad because I knew what we could have had......~ J.T.Alexander