Its always 'Why?'

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by xitslittyyx

by xitslittyyx

I stood there, frozen in place knowing whatever Felix was planning for me wasn't good, especially since he wasn't sober. He picked up my phone and looked at the texts.
"You're still texting him?! After what I told you while you were at PAX?!" Felix screamed, boiling with anger.
"Felix, were just frie—"
"Bullshit, you like him and I know you do! Don't pull that shit on me. You're mine understand??" As he said understand, he picked up the tv remote and flung it at my face, and hit me square in the nose. I stumbled backwards, holding my nose from pain and feeling the blood start to drip down from it. I stood back up.
"Felix.. babe—"
"Don't "babe" me you fuck." He screamed, dragging me up by my hair and throwing me down, causing me to land on my wrist and twist it a bit. I grunted from the pain which only made Felix worse.
"Agh! Stop complaining!" He yelled, picking me up by my shirt.
"Before I.. I..."
What was happening? Was he.. tearing up? His face held its mad expression and looked like it held no trace of empathy for me. Then why was he crying?
The next few moments went by in a blur. Felix dropped me to the floor and I landed on my back. I could have sworn I saw something stand over me. It wasn't Felix. It was dark and shadowy... almost like a cloud but black. All I saw was a flash of red, then I was knocked out.

Knock out time skip

I woke up to silence. I must have been unconscious for a while, because my room was clean, I was in my bed, and music was playing when I sorta remember getting knocked out at the foot of my bed. God, what was that? Something knocked me out and I didn't know what it was. I certainly wasn't familiar with any spooky Dark.. thing staring at me. I got up and switched the radio station to something a little more chill. I started to hear a soft, "they say people come and, they say people go.."
'Everglow, Coldplay.' I thought.
I looked out my window at the sunset. It was about 5pm and the sky was just a tint of orange. I sat by the window on my bed, listening to the song for a little bit. I tried to recollect my thoughts and see why I remembered from before I passed out.
'Felix dropped me, strange Dark figure.' Was all I could remember. I decided to check my phone. I had 4 missed calls and a few texts from Ja— Sean.

Sean: just stay calm Mark, and text me.
Sean: Mark, are you there?
Sean: text me, are you okay?
Sean: shit..
Me: Sean... I have no clue what happened.
Sean: wym? Are you okay? What's going on?
Me: I'm fine.. I think I just fell asleep
Sean: what? In the middle of our conversation?
Sean: When Felix came home?
Me: well, yeah. Is it that big a deal?
Sean: idk anymore mark.
Me: me either dude.

I put my phone in my pocket and ignored Jack, who seemed to be way too riled up for me to be calm. I decided to turn the radio off, and leave my room. When I left, I saw wall decorations broken in half, small indents in the walls, and broken vases. As I made my way down the hall, I stepped on a small piece of glass. When I jumped up and took the glass out of my sock-covered foot, I noticed that the glass was from a picture frame of Felix and I in Disney before he was.. the way he is now. I recognized the picture frame because after that day, for a solid 3 months I would walk by it and plant a kiss on it from my hand. I picked up the shards of glass and followed pieces to the middle of the hallway, near the bathroom. Then I saw it. I picked it up and examined it, seeing what it would look like if it was together again. The picture of Felix and I from Disney, torn in half between us. Tears started to escape my eyes.
"Felix.. why.." I said, crying. It was just now that I realized the water was running in the bathroom.
"No... no..." I said, taking deep breaths between words, tears streaming down my face. I slowly opened the bathroom door.
The sight was horrific
"No!.... NO!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, taking shaky breaths between words.
I ran to him and wrapped him in my arms.
"Felix I... I should have known!" I yelled, burying my face into his shoulder. Memories of him flashing across my mind. Moments of me crying into his dead shoulder later, I called 911, and then Sean.

Calling Sean....

"Hello? Mark?"
"S-Sean," I said.
"Mark, what's wrong?" He asked.
"I.. *sob* I..."
"Mark, take a deep breath. Everything's gonna be okay."
His voice soothed me, and I was able to talk fluently.
"Felix... is being carried.. by a body bag." I said.
There were a few moments of silence before He replied.
"W-why?" He asked.
"He.. tried to—" I couldn't finish.
"Kill himself?" Sean said, sounding choked up.
"And succeeded." I added.
I couldn't see Sean's face, but I could practically see the fear, sadness, and shock on his face. I held up the torn picture of Felix and I at Disney.
"He ripped up our picture!" I cried.
"Mark.. I'm so sorry.. I, don't know what to say."
"Me either.. I'm just shocked."
"Mark?" I heard Tyler voice say.
"Tyler? Is Ethan there too?" I asked.
"Yeah.. I— I am." Ethan replied.
"Mark, I'm skipping the last day of PAX to come see you." Tyler said.
"Me too." Ethan agreed.
"I'll be there tomorrow. I'm booking a flight now, you guys talk to him for a bit." Sean said.
"Sean seems very concerned, he would skip the day that he's doing the panel with Robyn and Ken." Tyler said.
"Even when there's still two pax days left." Ethan added. I just sighed, as I saw the ambulance drive away with Felix's family. I couldn't bring myself to go out there. His family thanked me though, for being there. I heard a familiar yell from a distance on the phone.
"Booked a flight for tomorrow! Gotta go home and pack, I'll take my phone now!" He yelled excitedly. I could feel myself smile slightly as he took the phone from them, and talked as he made his way back to the hotel.

Night time skip