Lelani's POV
Zaire and I decided that we would go to the beach. We haven't really been able to spend time with each other because of me. Now that I'm pregnant, I'm just tired all the time. All I do is go to school, come home eat and then sleep. So we went to the beach. I really enjoyed myself. I be missing my baby something terrible. After the beach, we went out and got pizza. Just a simple little date.
{Back At The House}
"What are you thinking about?" I asked Zaire. He was just sitting on the couch in a daze.
"My mom."
"What about her?" I questioned him
"She hates me, she not gonna want nothing to do with the babies, nothing. I killed the love of her life. Not just some random guy, but my father babe. The man that made me. I killed him." He said putting his head on his hands.
"B-baby, I'm so so so sorry. I never meant for any of this happen. I just." I couldn't even talk anymore, I was beyond emotional. I just grabbed Zaire's head and pulled him to my chest. I didn't know what to say or what to do. He killed his dad because of me. It was all my fault. I just wanted him to get out of the game, I wasn't thinking about the consequences. I was just to damn selfish to even see.
"No baby, don't be sorry. He was going to hurt you, I wouldn't and I couldn't let him do that. Your my world. My life. The reason why I'm living. I had to do it baby, don't be sorry. It's not your fault." Zaire replied kissing me.
I remember like it was yesterday the day that Zaire killed his dad. I has wanted him to get out of the game. I just didn't want anything to happen to him. I don't know what I would do if something happened to him. I remember going back to my car. I had just left the doctors office and they told me that I was pregnant with twins. And then all I saw was black. I was kidnapped, and I didn't know by who. When I woke up, I was tied to a chair and Zaire's dad was standing there. I remember Zaire busting into the room and he killed his dad. His dad was trying to kill me. I honestly don't think that he was going to kill me. It's like he knew that he was going to die. He knew when Zaire was going to walk into the room. All because he didn't want his son to leave the game. If anything, you should encourage your kids to stay away from this stuff. But no, it was like he was pushing him towards it. Pushing Zaire in deeper and deeper.
"But baby it is." I yelled crying. I tried to hold it in but I couldn't. I tried to put what happened in the back of my head but I couldn't. Whether I liked it or not. No matter how hard I tried to tell myself that it wasn't my fault. It is, if Zaire would've never met me then this wouldn't have happened. His dad could've still been here. His mom could've still had the love of her life and they would still be close.
"No Lani it's not, I wish that you could see this. I'm sorry I even brought it up baby. Let's just talk about something else. If she doesn't want to talk to me or be in the babies lives then that's her lost. Just know that I love you." He replied kissing me and then my stomach.
"I love you more." I whispered cuddling into his arms.
Zaire's mom is wild. She knew what her husband was up to. Why would she let him go along with it. She also knew that Zaire was going to kill her husband. She even told him to do what he had to do. So why would she even get mad at him. Yeah I know that she's hurting, but she gave him the go. Who does that? Now that I'm thinking about it, I don't want her in my kids life at all.
"Let's get you in the bed." Zaire said picking me up.
"Goodnight baby." I whispered into his ear before cuddling into his body.
"Goodnight bookie bear." He replied kissing me and then my stomach. I was going to take all of this in. Tomorrow would be the day that I tell him that I don't want his mom in the kids lives. All Hell is about to break lose.
"I'm sorry." I whispered in his ear before I fell into a deep sleep.
