as i walked through the clinic, patients were scattered throughout the whole building. so many nurses will pills in their hands, it was so foreign to me. the patients looked ill, mentally and physically ill.
my nurse took me to a room all the way at the end of the hall, she said it was for 'special people', she must really think i'm sick to not understand what she means. obviously it's for my disease i'm not stupid.
she opens the door and wheels me in, i take a deep breath and look around. i see two beds instead of one.
"why is there two beds?" i cough, she looks at me with a soft, weak smile. "you'll be accompanied by a boy your age with the same sickness as you." she explained, i nod and continue to look around.
a few minutes later, another nurse walks in with a boy in a wheel chair, "hello miss blake." the other nurse smiles, "this is ethan dolan," he looks up and scoffs, "your new roommate."
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"he doesn't look very friendly mum." i mumbled, mum hits my leg, "darling, you don't understand that he's slowly dying and so are you," she takes a breath, "and if i was him i wouldn't be happy at that." i look at her confused.
"go and talk to him, stop judging him by the outside." she gets up and leaves the room, i scoff and roll my eyes. i get up from my bed and slowly made my way to the other side of the room.
he looks up to see me, then looks back down. i carefully try to sit in the bed without him noticing. i fail and he looks right up, "what are you doing?" he blankly stares. i grab his hand, and he tries to pull away.
"stop," i whine, and he chuckles. i let out a huff and walk back to my bed. as i sit down he spoke up.
"i'm sorry." and then looks back down, i sigh.
"it's okay, now it's getting late and i think we should get some rest so we're ready for tomorrow, okay?" i weakly smile, all he does is nod and lays down.
i grab my pillow from the cupboard and place it underneath my head, getting comfortable i feel something touch my shoulder. it was ethan.
"i'm sorry, but could i sleep with you? i'm not comfortable sleeping on my own." he shyly mumbles. i nod and move over allowing him to hop in the bed.
he carefully pulls the blanket that we both now share over himself, he wraps his arm around my waist, so that i couldn't fall out of the bed. i move in closer towards ethan and snuggle my face into his neck since this room rather freezing.
i usually wouldn't feel comfortable with this whole 'cuddling' thing, but i could feel like ethan was very affectionate and clingy which cause him to always be sleeping with someone. but i didn't mind, in fact i enjoyed feeling loved.
he carefully kisses my forehead and whispers, "goodnight tanner."
"goodnight to you too ethan."
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ahhhh first chapter and it's shit but who cares?
i do
anyways ✌️
dedicated to
melrosedolan softgrayson dolanbloom dolanmagic ethandolol
love you babes💗💗💗
