A story to remember (Eugene Lee Yang)

Chapter 19: My secret needing

A/N I'm sorry, this chapter might be a little dark, basically, this character is gonna tell its secret need, but don't worry, at the end its sweet.

Hina's POV

After that conversation, I just curled up in a ball under my bed and cried, I tried to cry myself to sleep, 'No one really loves me, their just sorry for me, so they choose to make me feel loved but he don't really love me I'm ugly, I'm worthless, I will never be perfect in their eyes'....That was some thoughts I was enough of, I screamed on top of my lungs and tossed my fist on the cushions many times just to take my sadness, and my anger away, away from my mind...I tried to take it away, I tried to take away my thoughts by tossing my fist on the cushions. It never works, It will let my sadness, and anger out, but I that will never take away my depression.

I sat up and brought my knees up to my chest, 'I would've killed myself ages ago, but I never had the courage to put a sharp thing through my precious skin that my mom had taken care of when I was little' I just made that thought and screamed again. I was shaking and crying, thinking of what I could do to prevent this.

I need to be happy
I need to be loved
I can't be hurt

That was what my Psychologist said when I was 12. But when I turned 15 and the scenario came back. I looked happy, but I had more deeper feelings, but dad said that what the doctor said was Bull crap. I was still sad deep inside, even though I was loved, I was happy, I never got hurt. One thing that almost cured me 100% was friends, HinaM was one of that, she helped me, she wanted me to be happy and feel love.

Maybe this isn't just depression, maybe this is my own insecurity.

I was sobbing thinking about my childhood and of how shitty it was. Then suddenly my bedroom door swung open and my lamp was my only light, so I saw...Eugene?

"How did you get in here?" I sobbed.

"I borrowed Quinta's Keys."  He said walking up to me, I stopped him from walking by putting up a minute sign with my hand and wiped my tears from my face and stood up. I jumped onto him and hugged him, my legs were around Eugene's Waist and my arms were around his neck. I just buried my nose onto his shoulder and cried.

"Will you forgive me?" Asked Eugene.

"I have forgiven you right from the start Eugene, I didn't want you to see me crying so I ignored you, I ignored you as much as possible. Thank you for waiting." I cried.

"Shh, its okay, I will wait for days, weeks, months, even years just for my baby girl." He says and I giggle.

"No one is with you, right?" I asked.

"Nope, no one, I was lonely on the triple date so I left and went to You." He said shaking me like a baby.

"I love you." I said looking at him

"I love you too." He said kissing me.

"Can you sleep with me please." I said childishly

"Okay, just for my baby." He sighed

He put me down on my bed and changed his clothes to the onesies that is in my cabinet. "You locked the whole house, right?" I asked him

"Yes, I did lock every door behind me." He said laying down beside me.

I scoot closer to him and he hugs me onto his Chest and I hug him back, that was basically our cuddles.

"Good night Hina." Said Eugene Kissing my forehead

"Goodnight Eugene." I looked up to him and kiss him on the cheek.

This was all I needed, love, love from somebody that would give me that.

A/N sorry if this chapter is short, I just wanted to update you guys for it, I think I still have 2 or 3 more chapters to upload and I'm letting you guys decide on weather I should continue on writing this sweet little story or I should continue working on my new story that I'm actually basing off of DragonSpatium 's story.