*your pov*
December 24th
"Eli could you tell marcel that i'm ready to go?" -i said to my bestfriend who was sitting in front of the bed watching me adjusting my dress
"sure" -she got up from the seat and opened the door
*here i am, dressing myself for that party. am i doing this? what is the best for me? or for him? i can't believe i am doing this, i told myself that i wouldn't go to that party but eli has magic with me, poor eli she only wants to see zayn again before she goes, he's nice even funny i know what she sees on him but i can't stop thinking that niall will be there, i can't let myselfh vanish in front of him, i still love him so much, i won't resist if he ignores me again, it hurst to be ignored by the one you love*
"y/n are you there? hey hey!" -eli was waving his hand in my face
"yeah i'm sorry i was thinking"
"about what?" -she sits on my bed
"am i doing the right thing eli?"
"honey, you have to show him you already move on i know you still loving him, but you and him are not getting back together" -she stans up , she walks towards me and put a hand on my shoulder
"i'm not telling you to forget him, there's a difference between letting go and pretend you forgot, i'm saying that you have need to be stop thinking there is a way to come back with him"
"i hate so much when you say things like this, because they are true"
"miss, are you ready?" -marcel asked
"yes"
"we have a party to go!" -eli screamed.
-------FLASHBACK-----
"are you feeling comfortable?" -niall said, as i move under his arm. actually this is better than i thought, niall and i hugging, watching movies, everything is so perfect
"better than ever" -i kissed his neck
"y/n i want to say something"
"yeah?" -oh no no he is not breaking up with me
"we started dating since april 15 and we have 6 moths dating, i know you might think i'm crazy or you might scared but i need to tell you this...i love you"
-well i was not expecting that, i stay quiet, i can't speak even when i want to say i love you too, because i do i love him so much, since i'm on 6th grade i had love him-
"you deserve flowers on your doorstep, notes left on your locker and ice scream at 3 am, to be loved, and i can give you that i can give you anything you want, i have never felt like this, but woman, you make me going crazy, i love you and i will understand if you still don't love me but i know you will-"
"i love you niall. i love you, i want you forever"
-END FLASHBACK-
*i have to stop thinking in memories, those memories are gone. i need to concentrate. i'm doing this. he can't see me devastated, i'm a pretty and dependable woman...ugh what am i saying i know that when i see him it'll hurt. i can feel myself slowly fading when i touch the floor and i am on my way. five more steps and i'm in, wiould he be there? what if he is with janet? can i handle this? i have to stop questioning myself. one more step and i am in, did i just say that i'm freezing? I would not be surprised of the snow if today weren't christmas.
>oh god there are many people, i know so many people from here, well i actually know them thanks to niall, he introduced me some of them when we were dating. and then i see him, he is wearing a black suit, black pants and a white t-shirt, holy craps, he looks so much better than two months ago, while i am more fatter, thank you ice cream and chocolate now i am the not 'the hottest ex girlfriend'<
