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idk really what this is

but i am scared 

because i am changing and i do not like it

and quite often people will say oh you're being silly 

but to me i am becoming this person i have never really seen in myself before

and its scary for me

my dog is looking me in the eye dead straight because she wants me to take her for a walk but i dont want to go out in the snow but its only light so i can wrap up warm

i guess

however what was i saying oh that i dont like change and its scary for me

it is it is scary, for me, for everybody of course and it takes me a big old while to adjust to stuff 

i feel really shit and i have the worst flu and my chest is aching so badly idek what to do

i guess i should take opal out however when you do read this just know i love you :)