It was cold and black
Heavy in his hand
Heavier in her heart
With a blast of light
A numb kind of pain
I'm so sorry she whispers as she spirals above the ground
Shards of reality ripped from her grasp
She falls into the gaping whole of death
Unprepared
Undetermined
Unsafe
Under depression
Her daughter sit next to the gray slab of stone
All that's left of her mother, her guardian
The grass is dazzling green
The sky is the ocean, vast and blue
The creek gurgles softly, beating into rhythm
The wooden bridge over the river moans with the wind
The cherry trees were shaking slightly, as if crying over the woman's death
Their flower buds were falling to the ground live silver raindrops
Ever so slowly
None of this came to the little girl's mind
She stared at the grave
At her mother's initials
A silent tear fell on her lap
The child finally fell to the ground in defeat and sobbed
She sobbed and she cried and she fell and she screamed
She cried in suffer
She fell in desperation
She screamed at betrayal
And she dug into the grave
She dug in desperate measures
Because no one was left to tell her it was okay
No one was there to hold her
She was alone
Untouched
Scarred
Scattered
Unhappy
Desperate
So she dug
The soil turned to rocks
Her white dress became brown
Her eyes were red and puffy
And when she needed it most
Nature was quiet
Every one was quiet
The grass turned yellow and died
The sky was a cloudy gray
The creek was as still as glass
The wind made no sound
The cherry tree continued to drop their flowers
The once beautiful cemetery went dead with sorrow
Once the girl's dream now turned into a nightmare
The little girl wailed for her mother
How could she leave her in this cold, judgemental place
She continued to sob
Everyone continued to stare
Their eyes as dark as empty sockets
Empty hearts
No comfort
Just judging
And pity
And sympathy
No comfort
No comfort for that little girl
What have I done, she whispered, I am a monster
