Lately I guess am feeling hollow, another cold empty night and am sitting here thinking bout everything, feels like I've laid my head on a thousand beds, I've been everywhere but no where in my head, and With all these problems, comes solutions, and when I use them I forget what this means to me, yeah I know what it means to you, but sometimes I forget what you mean to me, yeah, but see i know girl you try, you try to warn me, but baby am warning you, cos am gonna do nothing if not break your heart, I miss already cos You inspired my art and everything, but like all these people I meet, these girls who are nothing but fleeting thoughts to me, I feel like you'll never have someone like me again,where as I've stopped thinking you're too good for me, No we didn't have the right love at the wrong time, I won't give you that bullshit, I been playing lately cos mind games the only way we talking, You were seemingly unavailable and it seems I've always been indecisive, And that in itself proves our ages otherwise, For a long time I thought I was still in love with you and it affected every relationship I ever tried to build ever since you left, but now, I realized that I'm not in love with you anymore. I am merely in love with the memory of you, and you was so convinced you was following your heart, but your heart didn't know what to do that time,
right now I know am just a boy and you probably don't care, but you can tell I been hurt, you're putting me on a pedal stool like am someone else, yeah despite all my mistakes I would take care of you, but it seems like I've already loved and lost,sometimes I wish I didn't love you anymore, yeah like flower petals on the back of your car, cold and fleeting like my attention, yeah she looks in my eyes and am not even there, You've been the only one to make me smile, I've succumb to what I've become, am not a fool baby I just love that like me you seem dead inside, this dark internal violence we embrace, like crows in the night, belonging to the loneliness and empty sex, people temporary as dreams, it's like am loving you with a frozen heart, a jag of bones, immune to love, but she might have been the one, roll it up mix it and I'll forget you like tonight, yeah am sad so I do this often, always talking up emotion that they'll invest in, no you ain't catch me talking to no bitches cos I got that dismissive act in check and these girls confuse my nonchalance for emotion often, yeah I can tell you infatuated with my dismissive ass self, but see girl you're everything to me, from what's apparent, I guess one day we'll find this love in the sky, bet you can tell am sad through these eyes, How does it feel, the worlds getting small, and as for me I think you're the same girl I first met, I just changed your life with this attention, am so spaced so lately I seem fucking off, bet you can tell I been hurt, you're putting me on a pedal stool like am someone else, I was always getting high cos my confidence low, yeah despite all my mistakes I would take care of you, but it seems like I've already loved and lost,sometimes I wish I didn't love you anymore, yeah like flower petals on the back of your car, yeah she looks in my eyes and am not even there, You've been the only one to make me smile, I've succumb to what I've become, am not a fool baby I just love that like me you seem dead inside, this dark internal violence we embrace, like crows in the night, belonging to the loneliness and empty sex, people temporary as dreams, still love you,
I bet she's infatuated by the things they say bout me, I just been so busy yet am last, in all honesty, my social life all over the place, and girl I know you racist against my sleep pattern, yeah I been feeling some type of way, I was told when I make it I'd stop being so me, and I guess I'd sacrifice my self for it, but for now I hide behind my art and my names just a lie cos I care what people think and my background isn't a vantage point, am so sad that it gives me advantage points cos I need the tragedy for my art, I guess am just a little antsy and generally stressed and j acre what people think, my mum says that she's proud and all the money am making will make me, but it's the heartbreak that's been key an that's what matters the most, adjacent all these intermediate relationships will help me, The truth is when it's about us I put it all on you, I been blaming you but what's sad is you're not the problem, I been indecisive and too passive, I find it hard to say bye cos I miss home when am out cold, one day I'll take you there, in my head you've been here before, you're a character and so it feels like I've had you before, am not so simple as I seem, and I tell her these other girls. Don't matter, you know I ain't worried bout who you got right now, cos it's been deep than that, I been acting fine kinda too animated, intoxicated and they looking at me to crazy, pray for me cos all I knew is pain and never having what you want, I guess I loved her all the same, and now I sing I knew all along you'd break my heart, but I guess that's why I need you, cos it's no secret I am at my best with this broken heart, and the imperfections that usually compliment my interest this time aren't that special and I'll just take you are, I guess it means little now to say that care, cos these last few days I guess I possibly closed off all emotion, but maybe you come and find me if you dare
