I relive every moment since I joined dauntless, my first fight, my first training session with Eric and Peter... I feel the pain and the grief again as he approaches me and touches me and I relive my idiocy as at the start I like it and so quickly I am fighting to get away.
My scream is the first thing that I hear as I awake to a destroyed room. Eric overturns tables, smashing glass and slurred monitor beeps. I gasp and he turns to me,
"How could you now tell me!" he demands his voice thick with tears and emotion
"I know right im a virgin" I smile at the poor joke but Eric just stares back with a new coldness in his eyes.
"I will kill him." His voice is calm but hard as he strides out of the room. I jump up and whimper as I run after him, clinging to him till he turns to me.
"I have to do this!" his voice isn't angry but broken as he stares down at me, I feel small.
"You don't have to do anything!" I grab his face and pull it closer to mine till we are eye level
"For me please not yet I can do it yet" my voice breaks and something vanishes from his eyes as he truly see's me and I truly see him. His eyes are angry but scared, probably for my sanity. He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me into him, into a hug and I close my eyes tight needing the reassurance. I have necer been a child or a girl. I always have been a runner, dependant on myself. This hug made things real.
I pull back with tars streaming down my face and smash my lips into his warm, dry ones. He is in shock for a moment but I feel the arms wrap tighter around me, stroking my hair and I wrap my hands round his neck. He pulls away and smiles timidly at me...and I smile back.
