Id - Omniscience

Plucked

As the sun emitted its nadir light, it clearly showed how low of a scum I am.

I'm terrified. It's loathsome, thinking that why the heck did she forgotten our friendship. I didn't confess to be loved, I just want to be connected in her circle again.

I've joined the facility despite of all its hardships, physically and mentally. I passed all its requirements just to close the gap of our hole. But my efforts are only for nothing.

Can't believe she'll be the reason for my downfall. Sa dinami-dami ng tao.

"I commend you for your bravery. But too much of it can be considered as an absurdity. You should think first before you head straight without knowing how weak and disgusting you are."

As she stepped on her gas for her mockery, it feels like I'm gasping for air as she constantly drowning me down the water. Excruciatingly.

"What's with the face? Aren't you satisfied enough to be called stupid? Why bother stay? You could just run."

I would like to. But it isn't manly. I must tolerate until she's finish.

Zena again, opened the letter I had gave yesterday. I didn't personally gave it to her apparently, pinasok ko lang yun sa locker nya.

"'Naaalala ko pa yung araw na tinatakas kita sa bintana nyo para lang mag-star gazing'? Utterly stupid. Such claims that hasn't been proven by the likes of you. I can't even comprehend it. It's dumb."

Please, high tolerance is needed Dhiel.

"Me? With you? Stars? Doesn't make sense."

Every lines she gave are so immense, I can't carry it much longer. Someone. Please.

"The fact na nandito ka sa facility na 'to doesn't make sense too. How come a weakling like you can be accepted by this facility? Generally lahat kayong mga hindi bestowed?"

I didn't answer. I mustn't. Every words exerted by her mouth are penetrating my eardrums.

Hindi makalabas sa kabilang tenga. Every criticisms of her voice are digging its own grave to bury themselves and rot just to destroy my limbic system. Napaka-depressing.

"Tsk. Answer it. Bakit ka nandito?" She asked again.

But despite of it, I'm still looking at my feet, waiting for her to be bored and take herself somewhere in order to get out of this appalling scene.

Oh god. Kidlatan sana ako ng kalangitan at bawiin ang buhay ko. Humandusay sana ako at humihiling na walang matirang lamang-loob sa aking bangkay dahilan sa kadiri-diri nitong binibigay.

"Hey. I'm asking you."

Sighed for my deteriorated actions, she folded her arms, showing dominance and disgust for my existence. Atleast that's what I Imagined.

"What can I expect? Utter waste of time."

It's infuriating, the way she assert everything. It angers me. Her voice deepens it with a cold tone but it seems... breaking.

I want to see why her voice has been broken. I want to see her face. But I can't.

I want to look up. But I can't. Maybe because I'm ashamed of myself. Maybe because what she have said is right. Maybe because I'm as dumb as I could ever be. Someone that can't be looked up to. Someone that must be looked down.