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No one ever notices how much I cry at night wishing I was never born, then my mom could have still lived. I wish that Scott could have a better friend not a stupid ADHD sarcastic non funny dork. You don't know how much I cry at night, wishing that the voices in my head would stop talking, but the worst part was IT. Was. All. True!

I was a killer, i do not matter, i am not worthy, I don't deserve my life.

It was all true, all of it. I'd put on a fake smile and make stupid jokes that nobody laughed at, nobody ever notices. That's what killed me the most, knowing that no one will ever see through the lies I tell. But who am I kidding, they don't even care about me they just use me, they think I'm weak.

I KNOW IM WEAK!

I always help other people because even though I will always be alone, and I do not matter they matter. Everyone except me, they have someone who loves them unlike me, I have no one.

I'm better off dead, no one would even notice I'm gone.
No one would miss me
I am alone in this world, I will never be loved by anyone.
Everyone thinks I'm weak, not strong. A pain in the ass.
A waste of space.
And they were all right about me.
A complete abomination, waste of time.
Wast of thinking of.
Stupid, clumsy, non-funny, ADHD kid.
No one cares about me.
For I will always be lonely.
Every blade I put to my wrist, I deserve it.
Every drop of blood.
I deserve it.
I don't matter.
Wast of space.
Wast of time.
Abomination.
Forever alone.
Because I am stiles stilinisk.

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Hi everyone, sorry if I spelled anything wrong. And sorry if that was to deep, but I hope you liked it!!