My heartaches and Whys

Promise, No More Sunburns

I woke up feeling a little bit dizzy. Naalala ko, I cried myself to sleep last night. It was actually good that I cried hard last night, atleast naibuhos ko ang aking naramdaman. After taking a bath last night, they tried asking me to go back to the party pero I declined. I reasoned out na I had an asthma attack for them not to force me to go down. They understood naman, I don't know if they believed me pero alam nila how grave my asthma attacks are. I only let Mom get in, and just by her looks I know na she understood. Ayon baka sinabi niya sila na inatake talaga ako because right after wala ng nakialm sa akin.

I'm not stupid enough para naman manalagi doon at saktan ang sarili ko. I just spared myself from further heartache. I wanted to get mad at him pero bakit naman ako magagalit? Kami ba? I realized that I have no say to whoever he dates. May karaptan din naman siya ng mgdala ng bisita niya. He also has every right to date whoever he likes and to do whatever he wants to do with his life and that's makes it more painful kasi wala akong karapatan! Im just his ex close childhood friend, his neighbor and a pathetic girl who has a huge crush on him!

"ughhhhh!" I slumped back in my bed again sa mga iniisip ko. I've been lying here almost half hour dahil sa mga realizations ko. "Bakit nga ba ako hindi bumalik kagabi?" They would think that I was too affected sa mga nakita ko. Although it's true pero nakaka hiya talaga! Maybe they though

I was taken aback when someone knocked the door. "Mam Bon, tawag na po kayo sa baba." Maybe si Mommy ang ngpatawag sa akin. We usually eat breakfast together. "Sige ya, I'll be there, I'll clean up first" I was walking down the stairs when I heard giggles coming from our dining room. "Alam mo ba tita, Itong si Saski basted na naman kay Tuli!" Then they all laughed. "Mabuti na yung basted, atleast hindi torpe! Ikaw Alo, ilang taon munang crush si Yana, hangang ngayon hindi mo pa naamin!" Then may humagikgik naman. Oh! great! the boy's are here! The timing's really great! I was on the entrace of our dining when I saw all of them with Raddi laughing with them. Oh no! he's here! Panahon nga naman oh! yung times na ayaw kung siyang makita, nakikita ko siya at yung gusto ko siyang makita, hindi ko naman mahagilap. How will I face him after what happened last night? I don't think I can really face him. Nakakhiya talaga, Tapos hindi pa ako naliligo, i just washed my face and brush my tooth. Itong suot ko pa, I was wearing a sleeveless a very thin clothing material and a boxer shorts.

I was about to go back when I heard my name. "Bonnie Baby" napabalikwas ako at tumingin sa kanang lahat. Gosh! nandito silang lahat; Alo, Saski, Gino and Rad with my parents. "Hi Bonnie Babe! Good morning" Alo called greeted with a wide smile. Alo's Raddi's bestfriend too. He is actually very sweet and friendly. Siya yung isip bata sa groupo nila, siya din yung madaling magtampo. He's father is a known hotelier. They own chains of five star hotels in the city. Siya yung magpapatawa sa iyo kapag malungkot ka. He's actuall Gino's partner in crime sa mga kalokohan.
"Hi babe!" Saski winked at me. I just rolled my eyes. Saski is half Japanese and 1/4 American. His family owns the biggest clubs here in the city. He's like Rad too, he's quiet, serious but a total Casanova. Siya yung kaibigan mong malalapitan mo if you want someone to talk too. He's been courting Tuli for God knows when. But because he's a known casanova, tuli's always having second thoughts.
The two of them among with Raddi and Gino are my closest guy friends. We all live in the same village and we've seen each other grow. Magkababata kaming lahat. I became very close to them through Raddi, sinasama niya ako pag maglalaro sila, if they would have basketball games. We're actually schoolmates, si Raddi lang ang classmate ko kasi hindi daw sila nakakapag babae kapag nasa first section. Kasi nga binayaan din sila ng magagandang mukha, in short they're all hot and handsome in their own ways.

Sabi nga nila, ang swerte ko raw kasi I got the eyes of the most popular boys at school. I can choose among them daw pero I don't see them that way naman well ofcourse aside from Rad. I treat them as brothers the same way as how they treat me as their sister. Yes, swerte nga ako sa kanila kasi naging kaibigan ko sila. They're always there for me. Kahit naman si Radd, I know the gap grew bigger between us, pero I can feel it that he still cares.

Dahan-dahan akong naglakad, I kissed Mom and Dad when I reached them. I tapped Alo and Saski too. I turned to Gino and he smiled at me. "How are you?" He asked me. I smiled and snaked my arm around his biceps. "Thank you Gins". He patted my head in response. Hindi na ako tumingin sa kanyang katabi who' s busy with his coffee and cellphone. "What brought you all here on our first day of summer vacation?" My eyebrows shot. Pinalipat-lipat ko ang aking paningin sa ka nila. "Exactly it's our first day, so you should pack your things Babes!" I knew it, the moment na nalaman kong nandito silang lahat, alam ko ng may plano na naman sila.
"Wow ha, walang pinalampas na araw. . we just had our Grad yesterday!" Alo gave me smug look "Ofcourse, you just said it a while ago. . It's the first day of summer. .our last summer vacation. .better start enjoying it! Ngumiwi ako, Saan na naman ba kami pupunta? Last year we went to Boracay, nagkulong ako dito sa bahay for 2 weeks because of extreme Sunburn. "Baby punta daw kayo ng Palawan ngayon" Napa tingin ako kay Mom "Palawan mom? . .Ayoko ang layo" Gino looked at me. "So you're not coming for my birthday?" Oh yeah! It's Gino's birthday nga pala. That's why every summer pumupunta talaga kami sa ibang lugar to celebrate his birthday. "Ahmmmm got many books to read" Umiwas ako ng tingin, "So mas importante na pala ang books ngayong compared to our friendship?" Alo shook his head "tsssssk" Nilingon ko si Gino, his face looked disappointed. Tinignan ko sila. Their face looks expectant. "Come on Babes, it's just for a week. . promise no more Sunburns" Saski wiggling his brows for assurance. Okay naman sana eh kaso nga Radd's coming, ayaw ko pa siyang makasama after what happened last night. I was about to say no when Raddi spoke,
"Come with us Bon" He was sipping his coffee looking at his phone. Naptingin kami lahat sa kanya. My heart fluttered. He invited me! He invited me! Usually wala siyang paki-alam pero he encouraged me to join. I stared at him for a second then he stared at me too. "Oh! Oh. .kay!" He nodded then I heard Alo said yes! Yan, Yan yung problema sa akin, my decisions are always affected by Raddi. Parang wala lang nagyari kagabi, it's like I didn't cry to sleep last night. I can always bend my principles for him. Because it's Rad, that's how I like him.

Then I smiled at Gino "Just for a week" then he nodded. I turned to Alo and Saski. "Promise me no more Sunburns" Alo was supposed to open his mouth when Raddi spoke "Promise Clairey" with a smile, and I smiled back. .

So it's true, a smile can always brighten someone's day. .