English translation:
[Verse 1]
They keep coming back again from time to time
Hell no perhaps that might be my true self
Damn huh feeling estranged in reality
The conflict with ideal, my head hurts
Around the age of 18, I developed social anxiety
Right, that was when my mind was gradually polluted
[Verse 2]
At times I'm scared of myself too
Thanks to the depression that takes over me
And all my self hatred
Min Yoongi is dead already (I killed him)
Comparing my dead passion with others
It's now a part of my daily life
[Verse 3]
On the first visit to psychiatric ward
My parents came up with me
We listened to the consultation together
My parents said they don't truly understand me
I don't understand myself well either
Then who would understand?
Friends? Or you? Nobody knows me well
[Bridge]
[Hook 1]
Those days I wish I could erase
Right, that performance day
Which I don't remember very well
The day I confronted myself
When I hid inside the bathroom
Because I was scared of people
[Verse 4]
That time I, that time I
I thought success would make everything fine
But you see, but you see
As time goes by, I feel like I'm turning into a monster
[Verse 5]
I've exchanged my youth for success
And that monster demands for more wealth
At times it puts a collar on my neck
To ruin and swallow me with greed
Some try to shut my mouth and say
I should swallow both good and evil
I don't want it
They want me to leave this hill
[Verse 6]
Shit shit I got it so stop it
I'm the root of all this so I'll stop myself
If my misfortune is your happiness
I'll happily stay unfortunate
If I'm the figure of hate
I'll get on the guillotine
[Verse 7]
The things I've only imagined turns into reality
My childhood dreams are in front of my eyes
The night when I performed in front of an audience of 2
Now Tokyo Dome is right in front my nose
My one and only life
I can easily live it passionately than any other
My fan my hommie my fam
I hope you don't worry
Because I'm really okay now damn
[Verse 8]
I've denied my nature many times
The anguish that dug into my mind countless times
There's no answer at the end of wandering
[Verse 9]
My pride which I thought I had given away
Has turned into self-respect
My fans, keep your head high with pride
Because who can do it like me uh
[Hook 2]
The heads of thousands nodding to my hand gesture
Show me the money
It's not that I couldn't but I didn't shit
[Verse 10]
Selling ourselves or not
You all say we couldn't do it but we didn't shit
The root of my creativity has tasted
The sweet, bitter, and shit of this world
My shoulder which shattered
Thanks to the accident I met
During my part time job
The debut which I clung as if it was my life
[Hook 3]
The heads of thousands nodding to my hand gesture
Sorrow created me uh look at me closely uh
Selling ourselves or not you all say
It's not that we couldn't do it
But that we didn't want to, shit
ROMANIZATION:
[Verse 1]
Jal naganeun aidol raeppeo geu imyeone
Nayakhan jasini seo isseo jogeum wiheomhae
Uuljeung gangbak
Ttaettaero dasigeum dojyeo
Hell no eojjeomyeon geuge nae bon moseubil jido molla
Damn huh hyeonsirui goerigam
Isanggwaui galdeung apeune meoriga
Daeingipijeungi saenggyeo beorin ge yeolyeodeolsaljjeum
Geurae geuttaejjeum nae jeongsineun jeomjeom oyeom dwae
[Verse 2]
Gakkeumssik nado naega museowo jagi hyeomowa
Dasi nolleo wa beorin uuljeung deokbune
Imi minyungineun jugeosseo (naega jugyeosseo)
Jugeun yeoljeonggwa
Namgwa bigyohaneun ge
Naui ilsangi doe beorin ji orae
[Verse 3]
Jeongsingwareul cheoeum gan
Nal bumonimi ollawa
Gati sangdameul badatji
Bumonim wal nal jal molla
Na jasindo nal jal molla
Geureohdamyeon nuga alkka
Chingu? anim neo? geu nugudo nal jal molla
[Bridge]
Uisa seonsaengnimi naege mureosseo
Jujeo eopsi naneun malhaesseo geureon jeok itdago
[Hook]
Beoreuscheoreom haneun mal uh
I don't give a shit I don't give a fuck
Geuttan maldeul jeonbuda uh
Nayakhan nal
Sumgiryeo haneun mal
Jiugopeun geuttae geurae
Gieok jocha naji anhneun
Eoneu gongyeonhaneun nal
Saramdeuri museowo hwajangsire
Sumeo beorin nareul maju hadeon na
[Verse 4]
Geuttae nan geuttae nan
Seonggongi da bosanghal jul aratji
Geunde marya geunde marya
Sigani jinal surok goemuri doeneun gibunya
[Verse 5]
Cheongchungwa majbakkun naui seonggongiran
Goemureun deouk keun bureul wonhae
Mugiyeotdeon yoksimi doeryeo
Nal jibeo samkigo mangchimyeo ttaeron mokjureul geone
Eotteon ideureun nae ibeul teureo
Mageumyeo seonakgwareul samkira hae
I don't want it
Geudeureun naega i dongsaneseo nagagil wonhane
[Verse 6]
Shit shit algesseunikka jebal geumanhae
I modeun ildeurui geunwoneun
Nanikka na seuseuro geumandulge
Nae bulhaengi nideurui haengbogiramyeon
Gikkeoi bulhaeng haejulge
Jeungoui daesangi naramyeon giyotine ollaseo julge
[Verse 7]
Sangsangman hadeon geosi hyeonsiri dwae
Eoril jeok kkumi nae nunape
Kkollang du myeong ape gongyeonhadeon
Jojbap ijen dokyodomi nae koape
Hanbeon saneun insaeng nuguboda
Hwakkeunhage daechung saneun geon amuna hae
My fan my hommie my fam
Geokjeong malgil
Na ijen jeongmal gwaenchanha damn
[Verse 8]
Nae bonjireul bujeonghaetdeon ge su charye
Nae jusoneun aidol bujeongeun an hae
Su charye jeongsineul pagodeuldeon gonoe
Banghwangui kkeut jeongdabeun eopseotne
[Verse 9]
Parameogeotdago saenggak haetdeon
Jajonsimi ijen naui jageungsim dwae
Nae fandeura tteostteosi
Gogaedeulgil nuga namankeum hae uh
[Hook 2]
Nae sonjit hanbeone kkeudeokgeorineun
Su man myeongdeurui gogae
Show me the money
Mot hange anira an han georago shit
Uril parameokdeon neonen an han ge
Anira mot han georago shit
[Verse 10]
Nae changjagui ppurineun han sesang
Danmat sseunmat ttongmaskkaji da bwatji
Hwajangsil badage jameul cheonghadeon
Geuttaen ijen naege chueogine uh chueogi dwae
Baedal alba jung natdeon sago deokbune
Sibal baksari natdeon eokkae
Buyeojapgo haetdeon debwi neonega
Nugu apeseo gosaenghan
Cheokdeureul hae
[Hook 3]
Nae sonjit hanbeone kkeudeokgeorineun
Su man myeongdeurui gogae
Hani naheun na uh ttokttokhi nareul bwa uh
Uril parameokdeon neonen an han ge
Anira mot han georago shit
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