same drugs//young lyric x lil niqo

i thought you'd never grow up.

"yeah, she was like that before she met all the rich bitches at school. they act like they care about her but they don't even remember her name. i tried to tell her, but she says she's fine." i wake up to alyssa's voice, laying on the couch in the living room. i had a terrible headache and was still tired as hell, but i wanted to hear the conversation.
i closed my eyes, pretending to still be asleep.

"we used to hang out every single day after school. she loved my mom and my mom loved her. she was so sweet and innocent back then. i would have never thought she'd change like this." niqo sighs.
am i really that different now? i knew i had changed since then, but i thought it was just a part of growing up. as you get older, aren't you supposed to change? why was it such a big deal to him?

once i decided that i had heard enough, i opened my eyes and stood up. as soon as my feet hit the ground, i flopped right back onto the couch. i suddenly regretted going to the party. i knew there were going to be consequences, but i just brushed it off because i was "having fun." i actually didn't have much fun at all. i could tell people were manipulating me and using my drunkenness as a way to get me to do anything they wanted. i may have been trashed, but I'm not, and never will be, stupid.

"good morning, sunshine! you look amazing, sweetie, just gorgeous. what do you call this look?" niqo laughed, fixing my hair. i probably looked a mess.
i got up and limped to my bedroom, looking in my mirror. i looked like i had been struck by lightning. my dress was slightly stained, my hair was all over the place, and the necklace i had worn was all twisted. atrocious.

"i'm gonna shower. thanks for your help, guys." i mumbled, walking into the bathroom.
looking in the mirror once again, i noticed that my face was clean. i remembered how niqo had removed my makeup for me, saving me for the night. since i hadn't washed my face last night like i usually did, i began to do my skin care routine.

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after i was dressed, i quickly threw my hair into a ponytail and put on lipgloss. i liked to do simple makeup or none at all.
walking out of the bathroom, i notice it's oddly quiet. usually, the television would be on or alyssa would be playing music, but the apartment was almost silent, aside from the roar of the ac that was always in the background. walking over to the window, i peered through the blinds, looking at the parking lot. after a while, i spotted the slightly familiar  car that drove me home last night. leaning up against it were two figures that were holding each other's hands, one moving in front of the other, embracing them. damn, how close did niqo and alyssa get last night? was i that out of it?

the people start to walk back towards the building, interrupting my thoughts. i quickly sprint towards my bedroom, seeing as we were only located on the third floor, which only took two short flights of stairs to skip up and one sharp left turn to get to. as soon as i plugged in my flat iron and started playing with my hair in the mirror, the door opened, the chime of the security alarm sounding throughout the apartment. two voices immediately erupted from the living room, causing my jaw to clench. i hate when people walk into somewhere that was previously quiet all loud as if there's some sort of party going on, like they're not disturbing other people.

"hey, where was y'all at?" i pretended to be curious, walking over to the couch and sitting in between the two. "we were just chilling outside, why?" niqo looked confused. alyssa nodded, shrugging. "cause i saw you out there being real friendly. how are y'all so close already?" i looked down at my jeans, pulling at the distressed area around the rips in them. alyssa coughed and then began explaining.

"we've been friends for a while, lyr. not as long as y'all, but it's been some time. we're not anything more or anything less." she glances at niqo and he nods in agreement. i roll my eyes, mumbling a 'yeah, right' and standing up. "where you going?" alyssa asks me. "out." i respond, shrugging and walking out of the door. i was most likely going to the mall to get some new jeans, but i still had no idea where exactly i was planning to go.

walking towards alyssa's car, i pulled the keys out of my purse and unlocked it. as soon as i opened the door, i saw someone running towards me.
"please, run! he's coming after me, but if you witness this he'll kill you, i promise. he's insane, i don't know why he's-" the woman looks down at the ground, her voice trailing off. "what the fuck is going on?" i mumble to myself, jumping in the car.
"don't, he'll shoot you! get down, hurry!" she warns me, hurrying away from the car as if to not give me away. i notice a man come from around the side of the building. i climb from the front seat to the back, squeezing in between the front and back seats. as soon as i reach the floor, i hear a scream and a gunshot. suddenly, everything is silent. i close my eyes, a tear falling as i reach for my phone. i felt like an idiot, i should have called before he shot her. i quickly dialed 911, explaining the situation and giving the location. i told the woman what the man looked like, but i was sure he had already fled from the scene. i sat up slowly, peeking out of my window. another tear fell when i noticed the woman's lifeless body on the ground. i had just witnessed a murder.

i should have saved her. i could have saved her. i cried, dialing alyssa's number.

"lyric, thank god. are you okay? someone got shot in the parki-" she started, but i cut her off.
"i know. the police are on their way, i called them already. she tried to warn me. i didn't save her, alyssa, i should have saved her." i was now sobbing, feeling terrible about the situation. she saved me by telling me to hide. i should have let her in, or told her to hide with me.
i was so mad at myself, but i was still in shock. i didn't know what to do.

"hey, it's okay. if you would have helped, you could have risked your life. good things come back to people, so maybe a miracle will happen and they will be able to save her. now, i want you to stay where you are, and don't move until the police get there, okay?" alyssa orders. i agree, hanging up the phone and taking a deep breath. is it really going to be okay?

~

i hear a few knocks on my window. i had told the lady on the phone where i was hiding so that they could come and get me when everything was done. i got off of the floor, opening the car door.
"if you would have called a few seconds later, we wouldn't have been able to save her." the officer says immediately, grabbing my hand and helping me out of the car. i gasped, glad that i had thought to call at the last minute.

after asking me some questions and figuring out exactly what i saw, i was free to go. anxious to leave the area, i thanked everyone and rushed to my apartment.
as soon as i walked in the door, alyssa and niqo stood up from the couch and hugged me. we stayed like this for a few minutes, not one of us saying a word.

later on in my room, i was watching netflix on my laptop when i heard a few knocks on the door.
"come in!" i shouted. the door opened, and niqo slid through the small opening, shutting the door behind him.

"hey." he said simply, sitting on my bed.
"hey." i replied, sitting my laptop to the side. he scratched the back of his neck, biting his lip. i wanted to get back to jane the virgin, so i needed this to go quickly.
"what's up?" i asked him, switching positions.
"oh, yeah, I'm just telling you that me and alyssa are gonna hang out tomorrow, and i was wondering if you'd come? we're going to the mall to get my ipad fixed, but we're also gonna chill. i thought it'd be more fun if you were around, and less rude if i invited you. i know it's weird timing and all, but we already made the appointment." he laughed. i laughed with him, nodding. i was a little afraid, but i highly doubt that anything like what happened today would happen again. it was a bit odd that they were inviting me to go to the mall the day after i witnessed someone being shot, but i was honestly somewhat calm now. i would never forget what happened, but i was trying my best. i was doing pretty good for it to have only been a few hours since the incident.

aside from that, it would be nice to have some fun. i haven't had much fun, if any, in forever since before that party. i also saw this as an opportunity to show niqo the truth. i had never changed, i was the same lyric as before. always the same.

a/n: heyyy this took forever but im done (: publishing this immediately and not editing so if some of this doesn't make sense just tell me and I'll go back and fix it later okay love you bye 💜