Martinez twins and I

memories

i woke up in Ivan's arms around me I got out and ran to my room and put on sweatpants and a hoodie then got a stool and stepped on it. Then reached on top of my closet and grabbed a big box I put on my carpet then locked the door and put on rember when I opened up the box and there were pictures from when I was little I saw one that it was are whole family I cried cried and cried. Then there was a zip lock bag that had 20 razors I put it down and stared at    it  and thought when I got bullied. I open it and pulled out one and exam it. Then felt it I felt how then it was then placed on my skin and slid it deep I saw blood coming out I slid thirteen more times . Then someone knocked on the door i said who is     it . while going to the restroom to clean it up. Jake said it's me I just wanted to know if wanted to go out with the crew and me for breakfast I said yeah let me get my shoes I slid on my furry slides  and the put my hair in a side braid . changed my hoodie cause it was stained by blood. i put on bracelets so they won't see. Then I yelled shot gun Erika said ahh I was planning to sit with my boyfriend. I said oh will I got in we drove to a small cafe it was already lunch so I ordered a fish with lemon and tea I sprayed the lemon the juice went on my cuts I said ow Jake looked at me I was rubbing my wrist with a napkin. Jake said ok everyone stop eating they looked at him he said what'swrong with you myrena. I said nothing he pulled off all my bracelets his face looked like he was gonna cry this is how my wrist looked

Everyone was in shock I ran out and called an uber I picked up my suitcase took the box with all of my stuff. I text my brother I'm gonna go early. I went to the airport and we took off I fell asleep as usual