After the day I had completely destroyed myself I went to sleep. I had woken up and when I saw I my arm I didn't remember anything happening until it clicked. I had made itty-bitty cuts up and down my left arm. I didn't feel bad about this time. I then got dressed and put on a pastel green jacket and went down stairs, everyone was waiting for me to leave for school.
While in the car, I realized that my first period was athletics. I was like freaking out bc I did not want people to see them and start rumors or tell the office. I started having an inside panic attack, I felt like passing out. I got to school and they had canceled athletics, yay me, but the day seemed to get longer and longer.
After school, I went straight to my room changed my pants and collapsed onto my bed and went right to sleep. Cozy. I slept the whole night until 6 in he morning. I wouldn't call waking up everyone bc you're stressed and depressed. That morning my mom knew something was up and was like clingy almost. She dropped off at school and it seemed normal after that.
When I got home my mom asked me a question, "have you been self harming?" I asked, "who told you I was self harming, because I haven't." (Lie) "mrs. bow came over and said Kaitlyn said something about it." Kaitlyn was my Bestfriend and also my neighbor, but I didn't tell her unless she somehow saw. In that second I started to cry, I was breaking down. I looked at my mom and said, " mom I have." And she started crying hugging me. But after that my world changed. No school, no friends, no nothing.
***im going to fast forward to the beginning of this year because the 2 years in front of this we're boring and dumb.***
