Wish I could stay with her more, wish I can say more words to her, wish I can hug her tightly, wish I can kiss her more, wish wish.....
She was setting bedside of me with wet eyes and silent gaze.
I was holding her hand and I didn't want to say anything.
Shining stars we're going to dim and she started the conversation.
" can you make me a promise to me?? ".
I was knowing that her promises are terribles.
" plz don't say anything "? I said because I was thinking may she want to leave.
She didn't stop
" I don't want to be cause of your pain. You should find a girl. Not a girl like me who can't stand with you. Who can't laugh with you always, Who can't meet with you always, Who can't share her thoughts with you always, who can't move with you. "
And she take a silent sigh. Her head was down like she was feeling guilty.
" I am finished and I can't walk with my husband nor with you."
" really I am the worest women in the world. Not a good wife not a good lover. I have no right to destroy you both lives . It's all my fault why I attract you? Why I accept your date proposal, why we I text you back , why I said I love you , why I make you my all word ?"
I could feel her pain and feelings. After a log silent she said to me
" you love me or not "?
This question was surprising for me
" yes I love you. Love so much that can't be express."
" if you love me you will allow me to say something. And the something is that you will find a girl. You will not funish your impeccable heart. And I will try to be a good wife. May be we can't see each other. May we can't talk."
My heart was saying " No noO No plz don't go. Plz dotn say that ". But I recede myself from all thoughts. And I was thinking all will be fine.
I was considering my self a errant passenger who lost his way. I was losing my world.
She hold my hand tightly " promise me. Will you do??
It was hard for me to say anything.
" Okay I will try. "
I didn't want to be a selfish man. I remember when she said she is worst women in the world and I want to reassure her that she wasn't bad women.
She kissed my hand and said " plz pardon me."
When I reached home where her image was roaming in my mind. Her pathetic sound.
Continue....
