BITTER SWEET

SUGAR

I could never understand why he chooses that BITCH over me. I mean Damn I have always been chosen first over Blacky. I stand 5'5 thick thighs, hazel eyes, pretty toes, a round fat ass, and need I not too forget this pretty tight bold pussy. PRETTY BITCH yeah that's me. People say I put them in the mind of Megan Good, only with deep dimples. I mean it has been two fucking whole years I been his little secret, in love may I add. HE treats me the way most girls dream of. BUT he still remains TOO keep her first. He tells me he is obligated too her. SHE held him down when he ain't have a dime, but hell he done brought the bitch the world. if she feels like she deserves more give that BITCH 50 gee's with 50 feet. write that hoe a dear John letter and let's keep it moving. Sounds a little harsh. Well I'm tired of playing second too a bitch that I always camed before. I'd be Damn if another year slide by and i'm still just his little secret. I may sound selfish, ruthless, and down right nasty. Trust me when I say I don't really give two fucks, FUCK YOU, YOU, YOU AND YOUR MAMA.

BLACKY

In life you could have it all and still not be happy. Money, cars, BIG house, all the latest great and expensive shoes there is, a man that adore you, and shower you with so much love. But sometimes that isn't enough. if you're NOT happy with yourself, than those things just doesn't matter, and that's where I'm at in my life.

Over the last 8 year's I've been with the love of my life Meeko, like every other relationships we have had our ups and down. if you meet any power couple or any couple at that, who may say they don't, laugh at them cause YOU know they fronting. Man I tell you we have dealt with money problems, cheating, death of my mother, death of his grandmother who is like his mom, two miscarriages, MY insecurity, sadness, you name of, we have been through it. BUT guess WHAT we made it and still making it. Sometimes it easier too just walk away and not put forth effort too work it out. But I have learned that if the love is strong enough than those trails and tribulation is worth it. I love my man with every bone in my body, but lately I would be lying if i told u he felt the Same way. Ever been round a person and you know like the back of your hand therefore you can tell when their in a mood of I DONT WANT TOO BE FUCKING BOTHERED. He is hot and he is cold. MAMA always taught me that God is a jealous God and he don't want you praising man nor material things because they can't bless you like he can. They didn't sacrifice the only son so that we can have everlasting life. I mean in all these years I've lost my way, and I can feel a big storm coming MY way. BUT I know it's something I can handle .God just wouldn't punish me so harsh again. After 2 miscarriages I though my life would end but I am still standing.

Sometimes I wonder if the miscarriages is what causing him too be so cold. Meeko always tell me I am as beautiful as the sunrise, but sometimes he come home and doesn't bother too look MY way. No I am not an attention whore that's my best friend SUGAR, however I am easy on the eye I remind people of Kelly Rowland, but thick, darker smooth skin, light brown eyes 5'8, very flat stomach, PRETTY jet BLACK hair that stop just above the middle of my back, and I have an ass that looks better than Kim Kardashian, Trina, lala Anthony, and Joseline Hernandez put together. I am a bad Barbie, BEAUTIFUL BLACK woman. Now I haven't ALWAYS had confidence I use too question my beauty. Standing next too My best friend would make anybody look average, even Beyonce . I ain't gay or anything but SHE is so beautiful and sexy. I can't begin too tell you how many bets I lost when betting on a dude.

YES WOMAN DO IT TOO.

Sugar and I are thick as thieves, Since the 7th grade SHE been my right hand, wherever you saw me, not too far was SUGAR.I mean in school I got picked on about me being a tall BLACK girl, I was called BLACK attack, smoke bomb, darkness, need I go on. But sugar stuck by my side. in fact she started too call me black, SHE said she needed me too get comfortable with my skin, because I need too be happy with the skin MY God created me in. so guess what blacky just stuck with me.

I high school MY body started too full out and boys everywhere just called me black or pretty black which I liked. Man high school was the days I started too love me the way I should have been loving myself. I guess just how you learn too love someone else, you have too do for yourself. SELF LOVE IS THE BEST LOVE. If you cant love yourself, how the hell you can love someone else. AFTER I learn too love myself I found that I could stand in a room with sugar and we both wore the center of attention. MY girl ain't even hated like most girls would in fact she told me something that let me knew that she had my back no matter what. She said BLACKY ITS BOUT TIME THEY SEE THE BEAUTY THAT I HAVE ALWAYS SEEN.