The Vampire Diaries and The Originals One Shots

I don't want to live forever -Damon

This is a songfic. All song lyrics will be bolded.

Damon's p.o.v

Been sitting eyes wide open behind these four walls hoping you'd call. It's just a cruel existence like there's no point hoping at all. 

She thinks I'm dead. She doesn't know that I'm not. How could she? She saw me get shot. After witnessing what she witnessed why would she expect me to be alive. How could I be alive? It's not possible. Nobody could survive that fatal bullet wound. Yet somehow I did. Katherine's blood is what Emily Bennett told me. Maybe it's for the best that Y/n doesn't call. But I'm still hoping that she will. I'm dead. I have to remember that. To everybody that I care about I'm dead. There's no coming back. 

Baby, baby, I feel crazy. Up all night, all night and every day. Give me something, oh, but you say nothing what is happening to me?  

It's so hard. Not going back for her is killing me. Having to let her think that I'm dead. Being scared that she'll think I'm a monster if I go back.

  I don't wanna live forever, 'cause I know I'll be living in vain. And I don't wanna fit wherever. I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home. I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home. I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home  

I didn't want to live forever. Stefan forced me to drink his blood. Forced me into this immortal life. And for that I hate him. I hate him for making me this monster. Hate him for killing our father. But most of all, I hate him for taking away my decision to live or to die. Taking away my choice. For that I will make him regret it. 

1 month later

I'm sitting eyes wide open and I got one thing stuck in my mind. Wondering if I dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life. 

Y/n died today. She was hit by a carriage crossing the street to her house. I saw it all happen. I was watching her. I have been watching her. Since I turned. I gave her some of my blood before she died. I'm not sure if it's going to work. Everything is new to me too. I want it to work. To be reunited with her forever. But will she want to be a vampire? Constantly craving blood. Will she hate me for taking away her decision like I hate Stefan? 

 I don't wanna live forever, 'cause I know I'll be living in vain. And I don't wanna fit (fit, babe) wherever (wherever). I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home. I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home. I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home. 

I see her start to stir. I'm grateful that it worked. I call her name. I start to panic. Will she hate me? Be confused? I don't know what to expect. 

"Damon?" She questions. 

"I'm here Y/n." I answer rushing to her side. 

" I thought I saw you before everything went dark. That's how I know I'm dead. Cause you're here." She tells me sadly.

 "But Y/n you're not dead. You're alive. Like me. You're a vampire. If you transition that is. If not you die. For real this time." I tell her quickly.

 "I'm a what. A vampire? How is that possible?" She asks. 

"No time for questions now. Drink up we have forever to catch up," I laugh. "Literally. We're immortal." She turns away at the smell of blood. But it's too strong. She drinks and bolts out the door.  

I've been looking sad in all the nicest places. Baby, baby, I feel crazy. I see you around in all these empty faces. Up all night, all night and every day. I've been looking sad in all the nicest places. Give me something, oh, but you say nothing. Now I'm in a cab, I tell 'em where your place is. What is happening to me?  

I wait for her to process what happened. I wait for her to come home. I wait a day, then two, then three. That's when it hits me. She's not coming back. 

I don't wanna live forever, 'cause I know I'll be living in vain. I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home. Until you come back home.  

That's why I spent my whole life searching for her. More than a century. I tell Elena. 

"And did you ever find her?" She asks curiously. 

"No. That's why I'm still here. I know she'll come back. She always did." I tell her. Putting down my bourbon I leave the room.