(This is the last photo I will ever take of myself (ugly right?))
I don't know how much longer I can go one. I know everything is my fault. No one really likes me. They all leave me at some point. I sit alone at lunch with no one. I make a friend but a few days later they ignore me or pretend I don't exist. I have been in a dark hole for so long but when I come out I'm shoved back in. I'm to use to saying goodbye so one last goodbye won't be a problem.
I get yelled and cussed at daily. I have been hurt in so many ways I have became scared of many things. I have faked a smiles for so long it's not even there anymore. No one has noticed tho. I'm sorry to everyone that I have talked to. I'm sorry to everyone that I bothered. I'm sorry to my friends and family.
I can't keep going anymore. It's to much. I know so many people care but my brain tells me that they are faking it. That they are not your friends. That they all hate you. When I do leave...no one would care they would all forget me and be happy I'm gone. I'm sorry to everyone again. Death has been hugging me for so long I'm ready to accept it. I'm ready to be laid to rest.
I wish life had a rewind button so I can go back and try to fix everything I did wrong. Story's do have a end at some point. I think mine is almost over. I hate how everyone thinks that I'm fine when I'm not! How long have I been this way. Years it seems but it won't stop. My thoughts have destroyed me. They keep making me hate myself more and more. I know that I'm not pretty enough. I'm not Skinny enough and I'm not good enough for anyone.
Why can't I get it to stop! I have told my parents many times but nothing happened. So I thinks of best I go. No one will care until I'm 6 feet under. No one would notice till I am gone. I know I have bothered people so much and I'm sorry for what I did. I won't do it no more. Because how can I when I'm 6 feet under. I don't think no one is going to to read this fully. It's just a goodbye note. It really shouldn't matter. I hate myself right now and I can't stop. I know I'm ugly. I know I'm worthless. I know I'm a failure.
One thing I learned in life..is that the world is a horrible place. Society keeps telling people to change how they look, what they wear. And people take it to far and they end up leaving. Society need to change the ways they want this world. Maybe it could save many people lives. How many people have to die for the world to understand that they are doing something wrong.
Will anyone tell me that I am needed?
Will anyone save me?
Will anyone come?
What will happen when I am gone?
Why do people care so much?
Why do people lie?
Nyo_Norway
Thank you for a great time! You are a wonderful friend. Don't ever let the light leave you. Stay strong. You should have the best life. You were the best RP I had. I'm sorry for everything wrong I did as well. I will never forget you
_APH_Feli_
Thank you for being my friend. Thank you for having my back as well. Tho we don't know each other well. I feel like we are close. I will never forget you
FallenEmpires-
Thank you for being there. Thank you for talking with me. Thank you for helping me when I was down. I will never forget you
Punchinthejewels
I'm sorry I failed. I can't take it no more. Thank you for being there and being my friend. I will never forget you.
