Im never good enough

I never deserve it

Simon fell in love with his best friend Lily

he never knew that he was going to fell in love with his best friend but unfortunately he did lily always liked him as a friend, lily didnt even consider simon as her best friend but she told most of the things

Simon also told her most of the things as she was his best friend he told the mistakes he had done , about his past how was he was such a damn good liar he always loathed himself while lily always took care of him as a friend 

One fine day he told her what he felt about her not thinking of destroying his relationship with her and of course she didnt feel the same way he did but he always knew what was going to be her answer he just needed to hear from her and he did, he was heartbroken and in time she lost interest in him even as a friend and left him, he always knew what was going to be the end

he loathed himself for not being good enough, he was all alone he thought he always deserved it he knew that no one was going to love him

he knew that he could adore people from a distance not from too close, he always was sad , sometimes he was self centered and that was the reason why lily left him stranded and lily was the best thing in his world and now she was gone

he looked at mirror and said bad things about himself, abused himself and at last asked himself looking at the mirror" do i deserve it?" and answered himself "of course you did u always did"

and said "ha simon u can never find the love of your life, live with it you self centered piece of shit"