Did you ever feel that there's something in your throat whenever you try to reason out? You're afraid to tell to anyone that you are having different storms and thunders in your brain. Sky knows how it feels.
She is used to being alone when they parted ways. She thinks that she is a burden to him. She let go of that guy. The only guy who made her feel safe.
Their relationship wasn't the best but at least she knows that in that span of 1 year she is happy that someone had the courage to listen, to take whatever shit she have. She walked away even if it hurts her.
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SKY
Kinaya niyang makalimot, kakayanin ko rin pero bakit sobrang sakit? Kahit anong gawin ko sobrang sakit. Magdadalawang taon na mula noong naghiwalay kami.
Nakita ko siya sa sementeryo. Hindi ko alam kung namamalik mata ba ako o ako yung nginitian niya o ngumingiti siya dahil sakanyang cellphone. Ito ang unang beses na nakita kong ngumiti siya makalipas ng dalawamput-isang buwan. Unang ngiti na nagsasabing naka move on na ako at masaya na ako. Yun naman dapat dba Sky? Yun yung hinihiling mo bakit di mo magawa para sa sarili mo? Asan na yung plano mong ngumiti sakanya?
"Bat ka nakasimagot?" tanong ng aking Mama
Hindi ako umimik. Hindi ako lumingon dahil natatakot ako. Natatakot ako na baka hindi siya nakatingin sakin at masaktan lamang ako.
Kasalanan ko kung bakit kami naghiwalay. Kasalanan ko at kailangan kong panindigan iyon.
***calling
