One Life, Five Hearts

Emily the friend in your heart

Emily:we've gotten some great feedback from some close friends and they seem to really love me, so we decided to give me my own chapter!

Wait it's just me so I don't need to say we, wow this is different, hmm so what to talk about. Well I think I should tell the story of why I'm so happy all the time, because as most of you know I'm not a real person technically, just an alternate personality, something to hide behind, kinda like those metaphorical mask.

So you think you got your answer huh? That I'm happy because I was made to be. . .well that's wrong. . .I was one of the last personalities to appear,literally only a week before yeller. And when I was introduced to the world. It was a shit hole, I was basically a confused scared little girl and wanted to constantly cry and tried not to show up very often because I was just a token of bad luck for Terbo, and I can hear you.

"But Emily that sounds nothing like you"

Well you right, I'm not like that. . . Anymore infact I almost killed us, and to keep it alittle less depressing I'm not gonna go into detail. But you know when they say when your about to die, you have your whole life flash before your eyes.well it did. . . And I saw absolute and utter shit, but what I felt, what I felt didn't go with what I saw, I felt the ho I've had for years, the love of the few who actually cared, the love of my sister, my girlfriend at the time, my mom, and my friends. I could feel that hope that had been inside us all through out the years, so as you can tell. I didn't go through with it, and I promised that I personally will do whatever I can to prevent what happened to me. . . Sorry for the dark sob story, now this is where you think my story ends at why I'm happy, but that's where your wrong, I'm gonna get this to atleast 1000 words if it kill's me, because then this will be worth a picture.

But anyways what should I talk about next, one second TO THE INTERNET FOR TOPICS

*ONE ETERNITY LATER

Okay so the topic I found was from my friend, and they want me to talk about next being transgender. For those who weren't here for the past chapters or don't know what that is, it's basically when your born one gender physically like male or female, but mentally you believe you were born the opposite, in my case I am physically a male, but I'm mentally a girl. And this took me a while to figure out if it was how I really felt or if I was confused because we are bisexual, and when we were younger (notice when I say we I mean me and all the other personalities including terbo and when I say I I mean me, Emily, cause in this next part I may swap back and forth alot) I though girls had to like girls could only like guys OR other girls, we didn't now bisexual was a thing, and when we did we thought if you were bisexual you liked the opposite gender more, boy were we wrong, and since we like girls more (sorry boys) we thought that must mean we were male and it was just confusion, but now we know, that we are female. And when when it was confirmed in our head, I was so happy, that means I had a purpose, I wasn't just a cause of pain for the others having hope for what at the time they said would never happen. But when we accepted it about a year ago. . .there was a different pain that came. . .the pain of jealousy and doubt, I thought and still think some days that it won't happen, I won't have the body I was supposed to have, but I have hope and always will, but then there's so.wthing that hope can't get rid of, jealousy, sometimes when I'm hanging out with my female friends. I get jealous of their bodies and can't help but stare, and not in a perverted way most of the time I may add that's the other personalities jobs, but I get jealous they have female features (to keep it not awkward not listing them) And I don't, and when they hate on their body like a girl with small boobs says she has no boobs and wouldnt, it makes me upset, not just that they are putting themselves down but I'm upset because while their breast have a possibility to grow, mine don't because I don't have them, and if they do it means one of three things, muscle make my mittiies (aka man titties, it's just more fun to say mittiies XD) alittle bigger because their SwOl! I'm getting fat which is highly unlikely since my matabolism makes me a skeleton, or a magical wizard person hears my wishes and goes "a bippity boppity boobs!" And magics me into a girl, which I hope (even if it's highly unlikely) it happens, just to hear someone yell those words. But still I won't give up hope and will keep my head up.(also that was just an example there are others but I don't wanna list all bajilllion)

Hmm still only 900ish words well since the other things were depressing/semi-depressing I'm gonna change it up a bit, another thing, one second and I'll be back with a new topic, although it's a only a wait for me you can just scroll down

*Another eternity later*

Okay the topic I was given, was who our crush is, well I didn't ask for one, we told her I was writing a chapter of this book while me and her(or her and I your welcome smol gay) played truth or dare, and well we were unwise and chose dare. So yeah, I um, feel I'm gonna be yelled at next chapter alot by everyone else,since I'm the one telling you all, but I'm a woman of my word so here it is and many of my friends knew or guessed  it it's the hypitheticly Courtney from last chapter, but maybe my friends won't read this. . . Eeeeeeeeehhh were gonna get so much shipping g in my face after I post this, sorry Terbo

But so anyways um, this was my chapter, I hope you enjoyed and didn't get to depressed, because depression is something that while you can't control, you can cope with, well that was my attempt at ending with a quote, that's more whispers thing. So anyways bye I had fun writing for you all ^^ see you later, and maybe I'll get another chapter and talk about happier things

~Emily, your friend in your heart 💜