Button Poetry

My Honest Poem

Poet: Rudy Francisco

I was born on July 27th
That makes me a Leo
I don't really know what that means
I'm 5 foot 6, I weight one hundred and forty-five pounds
I don't know how to swim and I'm a sucker for a girl with a nice smile and clean sneakers

I'm still learning how to whisper
I'm often loud in places where I should be quiet; 
I'm often quiet in places where I should be loud
I was born feet first, and I've been backwards ever since

I like Ginger Ale... A lot
I've been told that I give really bad hugs
People say it feels like I'm trying to escape
Sometimes it's because I am

Secretly I get really nervous anytime someone gets close enough to hear me breath.
I have this odd fascination with things like sandcastles and ice sculptures

I assume it's because I find myself dedicating time to things that will only last a few moments.

That's also why I tend to fall in love with women who will never love me back

I know it sounds crazy but it's actually much easier than it seems and to be honest, I think it's safer that way
See relationships, they often remind me that I'm not afraid of heights, or falling

But I'm scared of what's gonna happen the moment that my body hits the ground

I'm clumsy
Yesterday, I tripped over my self esteem, I landed on my pride, and it shattered like and iPhone with a broken face

Now, I can't even tell who's trying to give me a compliment
I've never been in the military but I have this purple heart
I got it from beating myself up over things I can't fix

I know this sounds weird but sometimes, I wonder what my bed sheets say about me when I'm not around
I wonder what the curtains would do if they found out about all the things I've done behind their backs
I've got a hamper that's overflowing with really, really loud mistakes

And a graveyard in my closet I'm afraid, that if I let you see my skeletons, you'll grind my bones into powder and get high on my fault lines

Hi
My name is Rudy
I enjoy frozen yogurt, people watching and laughing for absolutely no reason at all
But I don't allow myself to cry as often as I need to
I have solar powered confidence

I have a battery operated smile
My hobbies include editing my life story, hiding behind metaphors, and trying to convince my shadow that I'm someone worth following

I don't know much but I do know this:
I know heaven is full of music
I know God listens to my heartbeat on his iPod
It reminds him that we still got work to do