Connors Bracelet

Chapter 8.

*SCARLETT'S POV*

'I can't stop thinking about Connor.' I sighed, lying back on Hayley's bed, scrolling through his tweets. It had been 2 weeks since the kiss and I was still thinking about it. Was he?

@ThevampsCon This is harder than I thought.

'Dya think 'This is harder than I thought' is about still being friends after I turned his kiss down?' 

'I don't know. Probably. He wouldn't have tried kissing you if he didn't have feelings for you and you can't just make feelings disapear, so I am assuming it's pretty hard for him, yeah' Hayley said, she was sat crossed legged on the floor, surrounded by leaflets she was folding advertising a charity event she was hosting at the pub.

' Oh I feel so guilty, I feel like this has ruined everything. But, he shouldn't have kissed me, I barely know the guy!' I favourited his tweet, on the off chance he might see it and know that I know.

'You've been talking for months! I can't believe you turned him down to be honest! it's CONNOR BALL' Hayley laughed, emphasising his name

'A month and a half. but that was just texting, I only ever met him twice and it was the second time that he went for a kiss. I don't know, I just don't like him in that way. He's too short.' which was true, I was at least half a foot taller than him and that just makes me feel so uncomfortable.

'That's shallow, Scarlett' Hayley frowned. 'I know you're just making exscuses. You wouldn't constantly text a person you don't like, you were always so happy when you were talking and even more so when you were with him that night the blues band were on. You did this with George, I don't understand why you're so scared to get into anybody?' 

She was right. I REALLY liked George, A guy from school a few months ago, but as soon as he told me the feeling was mutual, I was terrified of anything happening between us, so I cut him off, avoided him around school, stopped texting him.. It was hard for him I know, he made it clear to me how much he hated me for doing it to him one night when we were both at a party, drunk. He shouted at me, infront of everyone in his drunken state and although his words were slurred and he was using the wall to balance himself, most of the people at the party gathered that I was, in his words 'a heartless bitch.'

Now i'm doing that to Connor,. The minute he showed me some kind of feelings, I pushed him away. We don't even text that much anymore, our replies are short and i'm scared of saying too much and giving him the wrong idea again.

'I don't know. The next day when they wen't and we said goodbye, I kinda wished that it would be the night before again and that I had kissed him back. It's  not the same between us anymore and i hate it. I just hate it so much.' I felt an overwhelming sense of sadness and....tears?  I am NOT going to cry over a boy.

Oh wait, I am. Oh god.

Tears started streaming down my face and I just couldn't stop them, I buried my face in the pillow in an attempt to hide them from Hayley, but she had already seen and was standing up from her floor of leaflets and making her way to the bed.

'Oh, Scarlett. I'm so sorry.' she sighed, rubbing my back. Anyone would think this was like a big serious breakup, not two almost strangers who are just really unsure of their feelings. 'They're in manchester again soon aren't they?' She was right, next week they were at the same radio station in manchester, promoting their new single, Wildheart.

I nodded. 

'well, maybe you two can talk and sort yourselves out again if they end up coming here again afterwards?' she suggested. I nodded again, feeling incredibly stupid, wiping the tears from my cheeks. 'good. Wait here, I'll go get some chocolate. I'm bored of folding leaflets.' She laughed, leaving the room.