Red Flags

The Beginning

   You never really see these things coming, but they always do. It's crazy how it happened with us you know. 

   You used to be such a sweet and kind boy, what happened to you? You gave me love, even if all of it wasn't real. Some part of you must have felt something for me, right? You don't just tell someone you love them if you don't, do you? Or is that something you just do?

    You see, this special boy that this is all about, there's something about him. He did all the right things, said even better things. 

   I should tell you the story of how we met huh? It began about 3 years ago, we just started off as internet friends because we didn't know at the time we lived in the same state at that time. To save you from the trouble from the first chapter, I won't go into too much detail yet. 

   Anyways, he was one of those guys who you felt like you could tell anything to without having to worry about if he were going to go off and tell someone what you just said.  I felt as if I could be myself around him. He was my best friend; my person even. Whenever I hung out with him I wasn't worried about what was going on on my phone or anything, I was just worried about him and us together. At this time I didn't really understand if I quite had feelings for him yet.

   Although the first time we hung out in person, I became certain of what my feelings were. That smile of his, oh boy. He had such a genuine smile, a happy smile. He had that smile where if you're around him you'll catch it too. Those eyes of his, they do this certain thing where his eye color gets a little brighter when he talks about something he's passionate in or enjoys. You always had good advice, it helped me through a lot. When I hugged you, I felt safe; a sense of security. Out of everyone I've ever hugged, yours is definitely one of my favorites by far.

   Maybe you weren't the one for me, but I really wanted you to be. Maybe we met at  the wrong time, but it felt so right. Maybe I don't deserve to be treated this way, but if it's because of you, it's worth it isn't it? If you really loved me, then why did you go? Why did you leave me? Was I too much for you too?

   How do you move on so quickly from someone that you love? Or was it just so easy for you to lie?